Ever felt like yeah you had nt to bad day and some1 kills it for u nt like saaying things to u but being really negative like next to you just makes me feel tragic lol seems like all I write in this blog is moaning about my life lol the exiting life that I lead lol . But at least its end of the day and can just jump in bed and fall in lovely sleep just me and the pillows its such lovely feel tho knowing u have done something with ur day well at least for me . Cos I do hate wasted days just do cos well we shouldn’t be couch potatos ..
Just lying in bed watching supersize vs superskinny always look at the thin person and think wow if I’d be that thin I know its bad and stuff but always wondered in kind suprize that I havnt gone in ether under eating or over eating or bulimia or something cos of the paranoia in my head and the guilt that I feel when I hav some food like its ok if it something little but say if do have take away wich I have rarely I feel so guilty and horible after. Sometimes do try tell it to people that are close to me and in some sence really dnt get it people says that’s stupid just hav food . And I’m like no that’s nt going near my mouth. U know when u see them people in pictures and u see them being thin and stuff it do fEels good in sence knowing I’m at least close to it if notting else . Planing to sort some inspiration pictures for my oneday wall