never goes acording to plan

Clear proof noting goes acording to plan I tried to google sad face for a sad blog instead I googled sand face. Lol close enough. Just feel bit yuck this evening tired and well I was ment go scotland tomarrow but some bits and bobs nt going acording to plan so needed make change and go thurstday. I know I know its only one day at least that’s what people tell me . But u know when u havnt seen ur loved one for really long time and yes it been 3 months can’t even type it with out tearing up. Then that 1 day matters . Just feel bit kicked out place. Just miss him so fucking much I litterary losing my mind. My advice do not fall in love u will end up crying . One way or another . U know when u want it all magical and something always always kills it and u feel horible cos u just want be with that one person. Just 1 moment is that much to ask ? Lol clearly is. I hate it. Just need some love and joy .

As an art person I hav always been amazed by picture books if it aint good pictures there is biger chance that I won’t read it than that I will. I love books like roman dirges taxidermied. Cos its full on pictures of guys amazing art work and that kind thing inspires me . And actualy gets me to think about the work that I do and like last sumer when my inspiration was down the hill it made me feel good and kind made me think not to worry etc . I’d say picture books are relaxing to me . The other kind books I favor is refrence books any kind refrence like fact files etc find them extremely interesting I like the fact that I can learn something from book I dnt feel that I do from fiction book . So I rarely read normal books. Prob only person that thinks that way but hey lol