Clear proof noting goes acording to plan I tried to google sad face for a sad blog instead I googled sand face. Lol close enough. Just feel bit yuck this evening tired and well I was ment go scotland tomarrow but some bits and bobs nt going acording to plan so needed make change and go thurstday. I know I know its only one day at least that’s what people tell me . But u know when u havnt seen ur loved one for really long time and yes it been 3 months can’t even type it with out tearing up. Then that 1 day matters . Just feel bit kicked out place. Just miss him so fucking much I litterary losing my mind. My advice do not fall in love u will end up crying . One way or another . U know when u want it all magical and something always always kills it and u feel horible cos u just want be with that one person. Just 1 moment is that much to ask ? Lol clearly is. I hate it. Just need some love and joy .