thoughts on weight and stuff

so must say it have recently struck me down bad time. i have a winter tire and im really not happy about it.  i noticed even when was in scotland at my boyfriends i felt really shy about it and if i had just like my bra on or a short top and i had to sit down i put my arms around my self to kind cover my belly.  and i honestly avoid mirrors.  i have a large mirror in my closet and if i have change clothes or something my back is always turned to it.  i feel ok if everythings covered but if need show skin then its like nooo…  just feels like some weird mental thing or something.  but i dnt know just gona try work out every moment i get and cut down on crazy much and portion sizes.  cos i felt so good last summer where now i litterary feel like a fatass.  and im not ok with it and something need be done.  so today gona mesure everything and see what needs improvements the most and then just work out. all the time. specialy now when the uni is practicaly done, 

so heres a pic of me.  no shame. but wearing my new top from h&m. got it yesterday well pleased.

30 day blogging challenge : day 12

day 12: your favorite childhood book

well when i was little i didnt really had favorite book book i was more of a picture book oerson.  yes i do read from time to time but usual not fiction books. and when i was little i loved books with grand magical pictures.  i remember my mum bought me these magical fairie books i can not member how they were called but i member they were about a4 size when not opend and it had this beautiful drawings of faries and like adventures and stuff i always used just look tru them not even reading the things i do wish i still had them but as we moved to uk my kids books were the main things that i left behind sadly but had no choice. but yeah i was a magical picture book child lol