could never be stay at home housewife

ok, this feels like the longest day ever . been up from like 10 o’clock which i thought that’s good can get up and take on. you know bit of smart thinking forward. so being a good child and being a good partner i thought ill do my weekly house clean. i was too dead after training yesterday so i moved it to today , usually its my Saturday thing. honestly i feel sweaty and dusty and just yuck but hey at least the house looks clean . some sense feels like i could have spent this day doing something else cos now i just wana sit i my bed watch a random show and play family guy game. feel kind of sad. despite obvious wanting show my future husband that ill be a good homemaker i could not do this on every day basis cos ill simply lose my mind. even now feels like spending too much time at home so i dnt now if i could do it as stay at home mum etc . no freaking way lol i know lots people want that but i just cant imagine myself in that position. just cant, plus all the other responsibilities of a house wife , im thinking ill have a househusband and ill be the bread bringer no objection to that ..

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the list

As I previously mentioned , every year I make a list of things I want to do till my next birth day, so as I got a new beautiful planer I thought its time to start working on it . Most of the bits are doable and must be done but some are a bit out there just to keep me motivated . At moment have 17 points obvious ill probably add something at some point but this is what I have now

Finish 3rd year in university (kind of obvious need finish what started )

Find a job (cos being poor is no fun)

Find an apartment (this is a biggy. But honestly feel ready and good to go)

The good measurements (work out my insides get skinny again)

Go to london x5 (must go london see people . 1 time already down)

Go for a massage (why not never been for a professional massage)

Go on a trip (holliday , call it how ever you want it but it must involve plains and definitely not involve latvia lol)

Buy the good perfume (yes dior all the way . Been a while)

Buy the good bag (I think these 2 points will encourage me to work more)

Join gym (want to get skinny again)

Pierce ears x2 (need get them ears finished finally I mean been over a year since my last piercing)

Get a tattoo x3 (so many planed so need get some finally done)

Get 6000 flowers on youtube (I managed 3000 last year so another year another 3000?)

Sell hand made things x30 (need money)
Take part in art contests x4 (need get noticed)

Read a book x30 (really want to get into reading more so thought I put it in the list)

No more junk food ( want get skinny . So far failing lol)

This is my list so far . Hope it gives you some ideas maybe for your new years resolutions . Any suggestions be sure to leave comment

happy birth day to me

it finally have happened , another year have passed. must say this been a very very busy year. well for starters my boyfriend moving down to England, that’s pretty major i think . some other bits and bobs, but besides all the nonsense at summer its been a really good year.  to celebrate my parents gifted me 2 tickets to go to London, so i grabbed my boyfriend by the hand made him get up early and all the other good stuff and off we were. must say i felt great. just away from everyday at place i love with person i love whats better gift than that. overall we did lots of walking about seeing the main bits as it was my boyfriends first time in London. but obviously had to go to Camden. we went food searching there in the morning after the bus journey as both of us felt absolutely starved. don’t mean to sound racist but we noticed that there is every possible food choice but not British lol so we went for some Chinese instead. in between arriving and food we seen the Amy Winehouse monument too with was one of the things he wanted to see. we found it by accident in middle of Camden lock.

20141125_121326must say kind imagined the sculpture to be a bit bigger but maybe its just me. after stuffing our faces we just started walking down the main street to that other metro station just past the Camden town one . can never remember how its called. just cause we were in serch for drinks . seen this beautiful wall drawing of a parrot i just had to take a picture of it .

IMG-20141125-03265i mean how freaking gorgeous is this birdy. and it was massive too. just soo soo pretty. when finally ventured away from staring at walls lol we did go to National Gallery. where obviously i got told off for carrying a can then trying find a bin and only one being outside , i find bit strange. seen this painting too on which one of the women totally looks like the kid from this is England . lol even tried to tweet it

IMG-20141125-03268seems to be the running theme that pictures are not taken of anything actual lol. i could say we were just personalizing them lol . oh outside the National Gallery we seen a big blue cock too . obvious must take picture

IMG-20141125-03269it was beautiful. as you can notice in the picture the weather looks horrible cos it started to rain so the next hide out was Tate Modern, my boyfriend hated it lol he says he does not see the point n this art. and if this is art how can i not make it in art world as an artist. it did made me wonder. we walked around for a while there then sat down to have some hot chocolate . actually was surprised that the gallery sells it pretty cheep plus it was just magical. i even attempted to do an electronic drawing for this collage thing that they had but it didn’t how up. my guesses it has a massive filter and my picture was considered dirty. lol  but at least here is happy me with my hot chocolate and my drawing. no shame

20141125_170643obviously seen the main bits like the big ben and london eye and buckingham palace too and i cant say enough how much i love that city its like it never goes quiet its literary perfect . and first time spending time with my boyfriend there really meant lots to me and definitely made this one of my best birth days ever. so happy 22 to me great start to my better life plan . pleased

the s&m pony

At least the pony is painted so just to get hanged on the wall when get in after that the hour to kill till another group critique . Always feel like people are not completely honest with me about my work .instead of saying I don’t like that its extremely offensive just take it off your wall they try to find some weird deep meaning to what’s what . I’m not drawing a fetish pony cos I have weird urge to see dressed up horses , I do it cos the sketch of a gas mask for horses turned out good and I wanted to take it to the next artsy level. but hey according to my art tutors its not good enough to base idea on. I still sometimes wonder have I wasted 3 years of my life with doing a fine art course . In college it was different, I actually felt like I’m learning something where here I’m not too sure I actually have. Besides obviously improving my hatred towards group activities and possibly putting me off ever wanting take part in group exhibition . Pretty sure its not what I’m meant to be learning here . But on the bright note . Its my birth day tomorrow and ill be nice and far away from this hell hole . At least for a day to get my head together . Feeling pleased

new ideas and new start

happy-first-birthday

it will be my 22nd birth day next tuesday (25th november) and honestly i have never looked more forward to my birthday in my life. well for starters my parents gifted me a trip for me and my boyfriend to go to london which im super sicked about as been months upon months since last been there. come to think of it last time i was in london was january… disappointing all the way. but at least have ticket now so am good to go . without a plan yet tho as need consult my boyfriend and pretend we will do things he wants lol. but going back to birthday idea. bit background – every year since who knows when i have made a list of things i want to do that year . usually trying keep it realistic and just adding couple crazy ones to keep me motivated obviously i have never completed the whole list . in my brain its kind of impossible but for a change i actually feel like i could do it this year . i will post the final list on here when its done as still feel like couple bits need be added. plus for this years list i decided to mix it up and trow in some random mini goals, i think thats why i feel it will be easier achieve all of the things on there . so fir now next 2 days ill be for start working my ass off to finish my dissertation draft as need be handed in monday morning and will be enjoying extra binging on food and other bits that will be cut out after my birthday day to achieve some of my goals.

another thing i wanted to mention , i have not posted anything for a month here but i have been posting on my youtube channel . even was  a bussy bee today and added new video this morning ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8uXMYMQmxM&feature=youtu.be )  but now on to typing the essay .