exited about exhibition

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Change in thoughts

So hee i am standing looking at the empty space i call my final wall to hand in kind stuff . And all these thoughts  run trough my mind like how much i want to trow everyone’s  stuff in the bin cos they have chosen to leave it next to my space . How much i want to go home, how much i dont want discuss how empty my wall is with the rest of the group . Sometimes i just dont want to even remotely  socialize with the people around me . I know im a bad person but i just dont care . I dont care even this much of how everyone elses work is going and how have they made or not made progress and it just goes against my morals to go fundraise for an exibitin that will take place in university where i already pay 9000 pounds a year for to give them more publicity  on my cost . Honestly i ill rather shoot my self lol . Yes i am being extremely  negative about this but i cant be f ed to deal with this . We meant to become independent artists etc etc etc yet everything is based on working with people not by your self but in a group . I just can not take it no more ..

could never be stay at home housewife

ok, this feels like the longest day ever . been up from like 10 o’clock which i thought that’s good can get up and take on. you know bit of smart thinking forward. so being a good child and being a good partner i thought ill do my weekly house clean. i was too dead after training yesterday so i moved it to today , usually its my Saturday thing. honestly i feel sweaty and dusty and just yuck but hey at least the house looks clean . some sense feels like i could have spent this day doing something else cos now i just wana sit i my bed watch a random show and play family guy game. feel kind of sad. despite obvious wanting show my future husband that ill be a good homemaker i could not do this on every day basis cos ill simply lose my mind. even now feels like spending too much time at home so i dnt now if i could do it as stay at home mum etc . no freaking way lol i know lots people want that but i just cant imagine myself in that position. just cant, plus all the other responsibilities of a house wife , im thinking ill have a househusband and ill be the bread bringer no objection to that ..

30 day challenge day 1

Day 1: photo of your self and 15 facts.

1. I’m latvian
2. I’m 21
3. I live in nottingham in uk
4. I’m a goth
5. I’m in serious relationship with my boyfriend
6. I’m an artist in making
7. I’m in uni
8. I love traveling
9. Family is most important thing to me
10. I believe in freedom of expression
11. I wear black a lot
12. I love sports
13. I’m happy with me in my life
14. One day I wana be somebody
15. I love junk food lol

Hers pic of me lol at work looking jazzy lol

all about my pale face

30 day blogging challenge : day 2

day 2: 20 facts about you

1. my name is Rasa

2. im 21 year old

3. im latvian

4. im a goth

5. im an artist

6. i have an obsession about the way my body looks

7. i love sports

8. i believe in true love

9. im very optimistic and find something good in everything

10. i love overdoing my make up

11. i always wanted a rat but never got one cas we always had other animals

12. im terrified of water

13. i love south park

14. i hope one day ill be a somebody

15. i always wanted to learn how to diy stuff

16. if i wouldn’t be an artist i would have been nuclear physicist

17. i thrive to be skinny but want eat all the junk food i can lol

18. i wish i would have more piercings and tattoos

19. i have bizarre sense of whats cute

20. i always wanted to live in london

 

 

velvet nails

I been seeing a lot lately of this velvet nails I’m sure every1s already done it but hey I was like why not let’s try something I havnt before . I thought it could look really nice for new years if it comes out well . Plus have the nail rock shiny things to save the day just in case . 🙂

30 day random blog challenge day 7 : thing you like and dont like about the way you look

in some sense this is kind obvious . the thing i dont like is that i feel chubby and i really need work on my legs . which i finally have started doing . i feel that the model look is amazing and i dnt think that its not achievable obvious would take time etc but y not . obvious i dnt mean kind skin and bones look but flat tummy small boobies little bum cheeks slim legs and yes the gap lol i would kill for the gap lol . i dnt want say yeah we should love our self the way we are blah blah blah . if you dnt like something about our selves we should do something about it for our selves. ok the thing i do like about the way i look is my style choice i love being goth it brightens up my day . 🙂

 

30 day random blog challenge day 3 : 5 things that irratate you about oposite sex

ok im not sexist or anything lol but we all have our little pet peevs about the people we choose to date lol my 5 things that iratate me about oposite sex are in no peticular order
1. lack of concentration its like guy what the hell is happening in you brain lol u lose interest in things so quickly its crazy just so easily distracted by literary everything
2. the man points. seems like ungoing theme with every guy i ever dated like he does something super sweet and romantic and straight after it he needs make up the man points by saying something stupid and killing it.  aint a good thing lol
3. the obsesion if their man hood. the size does not matter if your using it right,  unless obvious ur other half is into some freaky thing but for me personaly i do not care about how the thing looks or its size if u do a good job using it then its good.  period
4. obsesion with looks.  its the same thing that a woman does.  im to fat my legs does not look good in these jeans etc etc.  it ment be the womans thing but must say its kind cute in its own way
5. grabing out a word of a sentence and totaly miss understanding the whole idea. but must say every1s doing it cos i hate it about chicks too lol

so i cant say like these things make me angry or anything its just like why why lol

30 day chaLlenge: day 1. write some basic things about your self

Day 1.: basic things about me.
Born in riga, capital of latvia,
25.11.1992 (20 at moment)
Moved to uk about 6 and half years ago
Live in hell hole called nottingham
Study fine art in university
Full time goth and general freak.
Live in train constantly
Have a long term Scottish boyfriend
Obsessed with being skinny
Obsessed with london
Want to own panties shop
Always make lists – have plan for everything
Overly positive about everything
14 piercings and 4 tattoos (at time of post)
Dnt drink ( never been drunk)
Constantly wear black
Constantly texts so hav cramps in hands
Overly uses make up.
Has very very bad diet yet is size 6/8 uk.
Can’t wait to become an uk citizen . Hates being latvian ( self haterid always appreciated lol)
Fear of water
Love animals (really want little dog lol)
Winter and morning person
Hmm that’s about it for basics I’d say . Well I know I hav no life but I like it 🙂