the end

so it’s finally officially my last weekend as a student. this is literary it. what gona kill my brains now lol. also starting the next week fresh as a good little person with waking up at 7 to start work at 8. lol i was even thinking about getting a bike so i could roll to the work and save money and get skinny legs at the same time lol definite grown up thinking there. but honestly not sure that can believe that pretty much this is the end for my education at least for this time being. its been very very quick. i feel like now i need find new almost like purpose or even better a goal to aim for till now was to finish uni which now is ticked off just need wait till graduation that’s in september but in sense that just lie  celebration not the end cos the end is now. even got a cute card from my parents and boyfriend graduating me . i thin this is good time to look at my one day list again and see what could be my next big aim in life. its like suddenly all these exiting doors have opened and i wana go thru them all. lol ok im definitely not a grown up yet.

whats changed since i turned 21

so now couple days have passed since i turned 21 and became a grown up lol . and well i cant really say i feel any different but i do noticed that i feel like i need to work a bit harder as i am already 21 no time to waste to become a somebody . even now im spending most of my night studying and hoping that ill get good marks for the project specially if its not art work based so makes it super easy. feel a greater need to find a job too u know if one is an adult then one should work its ass off. obvious. so that’s what im doing . every night for past week now. just see how things go and what my new life as an adult bring. i feel good that my child hood have officially passed and i can definitely say that it was a great one 🙂

adult life sucks

I mean why for the love of god I am awake at 8 am . I dnt need to I could sleep at least 2 more hours but no my body doesn’t let me so I can ly here trying to remember what time today I start my dead end job and y wud I even want to go to it . Is this what being adult mean having life that 1 clearly nt enjoys and just roll with it cos that’s how it ment go ? When was little I always wanted to grow up cos thought I’d hav adventures I’d go places do things but no. Whers my adventures ?

time to think

Seems kind weird now that think about it . I gona finaly turn 21 this november finaly gona be an adult lol yeah right that’s the last thing that will ever happen. Just seems like I just waited for me to turn 16 never mind 21 in some way to me its just a birth day notting unusual just want do 3 things my bf go london and eat rosols (aka the salad thing or the russian salad) lol I dnt ask much I cud never imagine my self having grand birth days just not me . But london is a must this time dnt care if go alone or not but can’t nt go . 1 more thing I always do at around time of my bday usualy start like time like now to make a list of things that I want to get done till next birthday not many but things I wud like to do just get all ideas together for past years in way I havnt really done it to the point etc but thought I’m turning 21 I sud make a point of doing things I wantto wile I can .