as goth how i feel people look at me ?

People always seem to ask me what do I think of how other people usualy react towards my look and how do I deal with it etc. My usual responce is I dnt really respond to it . Like I dnt care enough about the peoples thoughts on it and as I dnt care I dnt need deal with it lol obvious its nice if some 1 says that I look different and nice etc like in a lovely way but if its said in bad way I dnt really take notice of it because well clearly I’m stilla s important to them for them to actually say something lol. There is exactly 4 people in this word who’s opinion in my mind matters its my parents as they allways been suporting me and they always been there for me nomather what’s my choices same with my best friend and my boyfriend who is kind like my best friend to and every1 else can kind think what they want I apriciate the opinions of other people but sorry but I dnt care for them as much to adjust my self or how I look or act or what ever else I feel if one stands ones ground then one will get further rather than just being a wana be obvious I am kind a wanabe but then again we all are cos just way it is . But over all I dnt feel you should need to even respond to anyone who doesn’t matter to you and they trying give you nonsence comments . I’m my eye its like why bother they dnt care about you why should you care about them ?

goths at work

If you have style of your own and u definitely don’t fit in with the norms then unless your lucky at least at 1 point in your life you will have to change being of ur self for couple hours every day to become “appropriate” for the working enviroment. Just because u simply want eat and dnt want live in cardboard box under a bridge. Since I been working since start of the year I feel that despite still having same look outside work it just feels like I’m losing the things and the look that I love and want . I must say in some sence its nice that no 1 overly judges u by way u look and dnt say that ur an idiot just beacuse all ur face is painted or something but same time it sucks so bad I miss my make up and stuff and just simply being able to express your self the way you want and ur left with these f ed up limitations that some1 somewhere have came up with its ridiculous . One can’t be one self this way . no wonder lots of people feel depresed even when they do work in their dream job and are somebody and still feel that they have to be “normal” looking to get somewhere and moment u say what u actualy thing they just show u the door. Think people should try stand ground more for what they want and not what the society asks for . Freedom of expression is needed heavily . Cos otherways we lose our souls and real needs from life