you may ask what is stopping one to be truly happy , must say in past couple weeks time i have discovered that it is always people involvement. ill specify that . the people who you may not want to be as involved as they want to be. it feels like ongoing thing couple weeks to get over madness then when you start think oh you know its not to bad . someone comes along and disturbs it again and this vicious circle keeps going on and on and on. its like there is no escaping it. which leads me to think is there really possibility for better life if other people are involved. obvious i want a few people in my life but would it effect their lives for better too if i do something about mine. but lets face it some changes need happen. job for a start would be nice change . but that seem to never to happen. sadly .. but at least uni is going well at moment. went to this art and thereness elective obvious at previous day email argument with the teacher person which was obvious fun but other ways been not too bad have plan with plenty things to do but right now im thinking bit job search shower and pink panther cartoon marathon . that will defo be improvement of my life. hah
Day 22: your bad habits
Oh where to start lol its just so many but ill just name the obvious. Me and junk food all the way every day lol. The more the marryer lol. Then what else . I leave things to last minute but I think I organise well to kind make up for it lol. I shop too much . Lol as any other woman. I dnt wash dishes lol thinl that’s a bad one . I just no lol. I think these are the main ones . Otherones arnt that bad I hope haha
Honestly its start to kill me that I can’t go to uni yet because I’m year 2 and only freshers start now in university of lincoln. Its really getting to me because I can’t go I’m sure I hav said this like million times now but its true and its in my mind all the time now but I hav done some little work for start the new projects as have plenty and plenty ideas for it and as fine art student there is no limits lol u take a old cut squash it and call it art clearly litterary everything goes in way its bad but in same time means I dnnt really have to sit there and study all day every day tru summer lucky me lol great to do subject that no1 thinks anything off . But yeah just kind gona start work on my book again at least a page a day so that’s rolling hav so much ideas for change tbh I’m just ready to take on but no that’s too much to ask lol. Just want get in studio put my are together . It be great and I think if everything goes as plan and I do open pantie shop there be lot of artwork to go on walls after this woop woop
I mean why for the love of god I am awake at 8 am . I dnt need to I could sleep at least 2 more hours but no my body doesn’t let me so I can ly here trying to remember what time today I start my dead end job and y wud I even want to go to it . Is this what being adult mean having life that 1 clearly nt enjoys and just roll with it cos that’s how it ment go ? When was little I always wanted to grow up cos thought I’d hav adventures I’d go places do things but no. Whers my adventures ?