First day as a grown up

This is literary my 1st day as a grown up. Got up at 6am to get to work at meaningless job that kills anything creative there is . Now casualy on a brake having my 3d hot chocolate. As I check my bank account  and think how poor I am. It’s great. But good thoughts are there as work out in the evening and followed by work on Web page and early sleep as tomorrow is another exiting day. Definitely  it’s time to make money better way. Need a plan and a goal I think. Def thinking material for the day because if I will have to do this for rest my life I gona kill someone lol 

Will things become better?

Just got good news from my mum she got the job she just so happy now . Wich makes me feel like things gona change and turn for better at least for now. Just my boyfriend to charm the interview people and we be on a role . So fingers crossed for that well forgoten better life . Just thouht i share a goodness of the day .

why cant one have the better life?

you may ask what is stopping one to be truly happy , must say in past couple weeks time i have discovered that it is always people involvement. ill specify that . the people who you may not want to be as involved as they want to be. it feels like ongoing thing couple weeks to get over madness then when you start think oh you know its not to bad . someone comes along and disturbs it again and this vicious circle keeps going on and on and on. its like there is no escaping it. which leads me to think is there really possibility for better life if other people are involved. obvious i want a few people in my life but would it effect their lives for better too if i do something about mine. but lets face it some changes need happen. job for a start would be nice change . but that seem to never to happen. sadly .. but at least uni is going well at moment. went to this art and thereness elective obvious at previous day email argument with the teacher person which was obvious fun but other ways been not too bad have plan with plenty things to do but right now im thinking bit job search shower and pink panther cartoon marathon . that will defo be improvement of my life. hah

the list

As I previously mentioned , every year I make a list of things I want to do till my next birth day, so as I got a new beautiful planer I thought its time to start working on it . Most of the bits are doable and must be done but some are a bit out there just to keep me motivated . At moment have 17 points obvious ill probably add something at some point but this is what I have now

Finish 3rd year in university (kind of obvious need finish what started )

Find a job (cos being poor is no fun)

Find an apartment (this is a biggy. But honestly feel ready and good to go)

The good measurements (work out my insides get skinny again)

Go to london x5 (must go london see people . 1 time already down)

Go for a massage (why not never been for a professional massage)

Go on a trip (holliday , call it how ever you want it but it must involve plains and definitely not involve latvia lol)

Buy the good perfume (yes dior all the way . Been a while)

Buy the good bag (I think these 2 points will encourage me to work more)

Join gym (want to get skinny again)

Pierce ears x2 (need get them ears finished finally I mean been over a year since my last piercing)

Get a tattoo x3 (so many planed so need get some finally done)

Get 6000 flowers on youtube (I managed 3000 last year so another year another 3000?)

Sell hand made things x30 (need money)
Take part in art contests x4 (need get noticed)

Read a book x30 (really want to get into reading more so thought I put it in the list)

No more junk food ( want get skinny . So far failing lol)

This is my list so far . Hope it gives you some ideas maybe for your new years resolutions . Any suggestions be sure to leave comment

new ideas and new start

it will be my 22nd birth day next tuesday (25th november) and honestly i have never looked more forward to my birthday in my life. well for starters my parents gifted me a trip for me and my boyfriend to go to london which im super sicked about as been months upon months since last been there. come to think of it last time i was in london was january… disappointing all the way. but at least have ticket now so am good to go . without a plan yet tho as need consult my boyfriend and pretend we will do things he wants lol. but going back to birthday idea. bit background – every year since who knows when i have made a list of things i want to do that year . usually trying keep it realistic and just adding couple crazy ones to keep me motivated obviously i have never completed the whole list . in my brain its kind of impossible but for a change i actually feel like i could do it this year . i will post the final list on here when its done as still feel like couple bits need be added. plus for this years list i decided to mix it up and trow in some random mini goals, i think thats why i feel it will be easier achieve all of the things on there . so fir now next 2 days ill be for start working my ass off to finish my dissertation draft as need be handed in monday morning and will be enjoying extra binging on food and other bits that will be cut out after my birthday day to achieve some of my goals.

another thing i wanted to mention , i have not posted anything for a month here but i have been posting on my youtube channel . even was  a bussy bee today and added new video this morning ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8uXMYMQmxM&feature=youtu.be )  but now on to typing the essay .

what happened to the better life plan?

so was kind sorting some bits in my room today and was thinking last year this time i decided to start a better life plan just by simply improving on the little things starting from working more on my look on the house then on getting a job doing well in school etc etc etc. i just kind seemed to have forgotten about it , and honestly i dnt know why . just seems kind strange that i have. so i thought i should try get back into it , u know actually make effort to do things and seems like i kind of started on it this week as today is 1st day for my challenge and i have been doing uni work every day and u know i do feel better . i did not go to the blood donation today tho cos my dad was not in mood to come with and i dnt like going places like that by my self tbh but we planing to go ether next Monday or next Thursday. will be good :). but i think at moment i need that like a boost to get every thing rolling the way i want to . we all know the little things matter the most meaning if u feel good you will do good . feel positive about this

 

finnaly better

so first day in weeks time when i feel like a person again. just been feelin so tired yesterday and today at least no more 39 temperature at least didnt went too hight this time only to 39.1 its super high for some but as i get ill super rare its normal even quite low as didnt need take anyting to take down the temperature , just gona try type up my essay in time for thusrtday see how goes. and must say im ready to leave the bed tomarow even just go post office get some fresh layer of clothes and bedding and be ready to take on again woop:)

vitamin c will save the day

Good evening people. Let’s have glass of vitamin c and drink up for feeling better ! Finaly did the stupid video . As you can see it kind sucks ass as you can see for your self in the previous post of mine. Still like million things to do so taking on masive doses of vitamin c to get it all going . Feel good and positive . Tomarrow blood giving day too so that’s good . I’m doing it I’m doing it . Xx

random thoughts wile watching american dad

Always thought that when I will turn 21 ill hAve bit different life than I have now. Just thought I’d atleast go usa for my bday but things never seem to turn out how one plans it. At least the new years is just around corner too and for some reason I feel that it will def be a good year and I will hav lots great time and at least find job lol so I can do things . In main areas I just want move in with my bf and travel somewhere new . Just seems so much to do but so little time but like say new year have to be a good year x

feeling thin

unbalievable have happened and for change i actually feel thin. well i did lol. i took this picture just after training

you ever get feeling when you have good work out u go up to a mirror and think damn i look lots thiner than 2 h ago lol.  i always get that and then have massive breakfast or something. lol.  im just sitting here hoping that one day my  bottom half will look the same as the top half nice skinny and bit muscle here and there too obvious. cos even like today i bought some high waisted shorts they fit well around my legs and bum cheeks but are way tok wide for the waist so will need take them in a tiny bit.  legs always been my bad point,  but next year is the year when i make them nice one way or another