ok, this feels like the longest day ever . been up from like 10 o’clock which i thought that’s good can get up and take on. you know bit of smart thinking forward. so being a good child and being a good partner i thought ill do my weekly house clean. i was too dead after training yesterday so i moved it to today , usually its my Saturday thing. honestly i feel sweaty and dusty and just yuck but hey at least the house looks clean . some sense feels like i could have spent this day doing something else cos now i just wana sit i my bed watch a random show and play family guy game. feel kind of sad. despite obvious wanting show my future husband that ill be a good homemaker i could not do this on every day basis cos ill simply lose my mind. even now feels like spending too much time at home so i dnt now if i could do it as stay at home mum etc . no freaking way lol i know lots people want that but i just cant imagine myself in that position. just cant, plus all the other responsibilities of a house wife , im thinking ill have a househusband and ill be the bread bringer no objection to that ..
So it finaly happened over a year later I’m ill I’d be ok about being ill but I have deadlines next week so I feel tottaly f ed . Already asked about extention etc so see how goes just feel bit out there cos might need change the times I go scotland can’t channge london but no choice . Just sucks bad time 😦
yesterday was def a no post day , sorry about that but I was just deaf on feet I just couldn’t do anything I did do like bunch of printing and did like a page in my sketch book but its just no . Like my own body hated me just felt so tired I think its much to do with my blood pressure as it have gone down the hill and if u have low blood pressure u know what I mean . Like some times I just feel like my mind and body is out there and Notting is happening but I’m getting back on track today actually getting up and doing things lol makes a change lol
Yestrday was walking down the stairs outside my front door to go to training. I always use the back door so dnt need go around the building . And near the bins I noticed this little rat baby lying there . Poor thing looked like some1 hav just bite it to death and left it lying there . I just found it so so beautiful that I decided it gona be my first preserved animal. As I been having no luck buying one I decided just presrve the little rat guy my self . I didn’t had time last night or today to get some the stuff to preserve it in so till tomarrow its in little jar in some vodka just keep it cleen etc. I’m so so happy about this little guy he’s absolutely beautiful .