nightmares depression and diy room vlog

back from scotland

So I came back from scotland this monday after an eventfull week with my sweet sweet boyfriend. When got there he blasted out this mega box of gifts and all these little things that just made him think of me so he got them just thought was the sweetest thing ever plus it kind made me finaly go get that new shelf yesterday as have lots to go on there . And well iit wasn’t the bestest week for us as well we havnt seen each other for months and then sudnly do again its bit u know ackward at times but I think it gave us time to talk things trough and well we actually have date when going back wich is in about 3 week not 3 months so definitely lots better than befor and we thought we been together almost 4 year y give up now . It comes with its harshness and its not geting easyer as I have to fight of heavy depersion every time I come back but I think its worth every moment for even the chance to be with him . Plus we only live once so y not be with person u wana be rather than just giving up. Guy is my absolute world and I’d cut my own leg off for him and I think after all this distance thing we will be stronger than ever and we be able apriciate the relationship more that way . Only to grow stronger . Never to give up. 13

tiredness and stress

The joys of grown up life stress work money lol. Just lately been feeling tired out just cos too much going on in my mind. Like with the work and uni starting too. Just seems so much to do but no time to do it . As per usual. In way really can’t wait go scotland to go away for bit cos it does halp me get away from the every day normal things just love and joy . I think its good just get away for bit just relax from the world duno why just been bit much . And any1 who ever delt with depression will know how it is just when u know the signs and u just need bit brake and not get in that point again.pfft..