Blank wall

Todays job . Blank wall.. its great to fail . Cant do f all today . But at least came in printed everything that needed to be printed and painted my wall so thought time head home . A bit to write up when on way to notts. Just feel quite yuck the smell of cheap emulsion is literary killing my insides and i just feel like trowing up. But have no time to be ill . Thought if vet home early then can try sort bits for essay and some other that just need be finished  tomarrow  frame shopping. Hopefuly cheeply. Is this a geat day… far off . Honestly i think i just need proper sleep the joy of nightmares is not really helping my madness so just rolling with it i gues,,

Mail sent lets do things

Sent out the pack for my lovely giveaway winner so thats atleast done . Still so much to do for uni specialy but seems like I just do everything else instead. But im determined to get stuff done im even ticking things off in the list . Just waiting for my mum to leave so can pack up the christmas gifts too so thats out of the way . Till then tho seems like I meant to bee a pillow for tiny cat poor thing seems frozen . Got love  tiny cat she so cute

Tried to add picture but word press just not letting me so just posted it on my instagram @disspossable . Feels like it gona be long day today so better get going .. another day at home . Oh the life I lead

the list

As I previously mentioned , every year I make a list of things I want to do till my next birth day, so as I got a new beautiful planer I thought its time to start working on it . Most of the bits are doable and must be done but some are a bit out there just to keep me motivated . At moment have 17 points obvious ill probably add something at some point but this is what I have now

Finish 3rd year in university (kind of obvious need finish what started )

Find a job (cos being poor is no fun)

Find an apartment (this is a biggy. But honestly feel ready and good to go)

The good measurements (work out my insides get skinny again)

Go to london x5 (must go london see people . 1 time already down)

Go for a massage (why not never been for a professional massage)

Go on a trip (holliday , call it how ever you want it but it must involve plains and definitely not involve latvia lol)

Buy the good perfume (yes dior all the way . Been a while)

Buy the good bag (I think these 2 points will encourage me to work more)

Join gym (want to get skinny again)

Pierce ears x2 (need get them ears finished finally I mean been over a year since my last piercing)

Get a tattoo x3 (so many planed so need get some finally done)

Get 6000 flowers on youtube (I managed 3000 last year so another year another 3000?)

Sell hand made things x30 (need money)
Take part in art contests x4 (need get noticed)

Read a book x30 (really want to get into reading more so thought I put it in the list)

No more junk food ( want get skinny . So far failing lol)

This is my list so far . Hope it gives you some ideas maybe for your new years resolutions . Any suggestions be sure to leave comment

30 day blogging challenge day 15

Day 15: photo of something you want to do before you die

This is pretty straight forward. I want to travel the world.

all signs of jealousy

All happy signs of jealousy in me. No shame lol no shame. As per always been browsing my facebook and have noticed that literary everyone I know is going somewhere and doing things where I’m like no money need stay home and look sad lol. Cos seriously sometimes I just don’t get it. They same as me students not rich etc yet seems like everything’s possible in their lives. I mean what is this scosery lol tell me your secrets . I want be somebody too .

is this the right path?

Ever sat there and wondered if your going the right way in your carrier? Honestly I’m now sitting in my works canteen area drinking hot chocolate and wondering. What am I doing, where am I going with this . Will I be a somebody 1 day . At least enough of a sombody to provide for my family etc . Now that my youtube chanel is picking up I kind feel inspired to actualy start think what I gona do . Specialy knowing that just 1 year left . Honestly think I just need a bit of goal setting not like one day but bit more realistic . Maybe open a shop . That was good idea at start . But dunno. The joys of wondering mind..

work to do

So just sitting here looking trough my sketchbook still bits to do . But I feel like I have come to something with this book so I thought I could share my book with all of you . Would that be interesting ? Its not the finished things but the ideas and stuff . Same ill be posting some of my essays too its just something I’d like to share . As I think they are some what good . Plus I been kind off key with posts cos been ill so I just thought I would share what been ocupying my mind 🙂

get ur bestfirend to do exersizes with you

So I convinced my lovely friend here to do little exercise challenge with me . Cos then u feel like u have some sort of responsibility to do the exercises cos u know the other person is do ing it . So we decided that our bad areas are our legs and bums and they need bit toning up so we have little challenge to do squats every day starting from 20 going up to 200 doing 10 more every day . We just done our day of 90 and it feels good . Team work lol. I think its great stimulation to have other person doing it too . And u know u just kind know some1 out there is hurting as much as you are lol. It doesn’t get better . 😉

30 day random blog challenge day 5 : weird thing that you do when alone

well this is easy i talk to my self like bad time lol.  is that normal?  no. lol.  but yeah i always have full on discosions with my self and stuff its great lol.  im clearly mental but hey i love it lol.  u cant say that u have never talked to ur self so shush lol

So was thinking yestrday that I really want start doing something new and kind zig zaging tru net fround people doing the 30 day challenges so I have been googling and taking notes of what I could do and these are the best ones I found :
30 days of 10000 steps a day
30 days of no sugar
Try one new thing for 30 days
30 days of 100 sit ups or squats a day
Draw something each day for 30 days
30 day photography challenge
30 days of diy a day
30 days of learning a fact a day
30 days of eating for 175 cal less
30 days of no fizzy drinks

These seem the ones that appiel to me the most so I’m now trying to decide what wud be the most fun to do 🙂