day 21 : what makes you sad
well im usualy trying to be pretty positive about things and what ever is happening eyc. with all the there is something good in everything thats bad motivation but things that mainly make me sad is seeing people i love being upset or simply unhappy about something. thats usualy the thing thats gets to me if can pass everything else thats one thing that kind makes me think about things.
Day 20: what makes you happy
This is easy to answer. 1 main thing that makes me happy is seeing people I love being happy. That’s my mum dad best friend and boyfriend. I love them to bits and if I see they are enjoying their lifes etc I feel happy about them. Can go without anything else .
are you same as me from some them weird people that celebrate christmas at christmas eve? in this sence specialy like kid i never got the getting up in morning and getting your gifts cos you already got them the previous night. but u know for me its not so much about gifts i just like that i can get together with mum and dad have a lovely meal have a laugh etc just nice family thing. i like that. its alabout the christmas spirit. i know i have been tough year etc but it was nice had some yummy food and chatted away. sadly my bf couldnt join us this year cos his work and some other bits but at least get see him soon anyway so its all not that bad. all this did happen on 24th and traditionaly i always spend 25th as lazy as posible. the less i move the better. its food and films all the way. and now that im finaly alive with my insides killing me cos too much food i feel like i can take on the day, start on my uni stuff on bits that need be finished etc. see i can act like an adult if i need to lol. tomarrow tho will need leave the house cos need get some bits and bobs for the lady that always comes visit us over the new years. shes like a family friend. well look forward to that. must say over all its been pretty good. 🙂
So todays blog. 7 things that cross my mind the most .
1. My boyfriend. I think its kind obvious lol I love him to bits so it feels like I always having him in my mind
2. Family and friends. Like every other person that I care about .
3.University. At moment bad time trying sort everything etc. Its hard work.
4. Money. Well in who’s mind money isn’t specially if your a student .
5. Tsunamis. Cos I have massive fear of water and I hope we all won’t die from masive tsunami lol.
6. Trains. If u would live in trains as much as I do you would think about them too . Cos u never know when they will rise the prices again. Or who knows what else not .
7. Food. This prob should be 2nd in list lol I constantly think about food its crazy . I’m kind obsessed.
Being a goth for quite a wile now I know how it is to have a pressure to be normal and “fit in” even by the people who always suport u in it they still from time to time sugests to be some1 well normal. I dnt know how it is for other specific style people but to me specialy now when I have to wear uniform to work etc I feel under constant treath of losing my self and the style that I beyondly love and the 1 thing that’s truly mine. And must say its realy realy hard to keep going but I think that people should enjoy standing out and just being them selfs and simply showing that they are more than normal .
Finaly end of the day. Be bussy day tommarow need finaly sort my blog times and start the geting ready for bikini season work out will be talking much about it and giving ideas for work outs and things and will keeep updating my random nonsence too need sort tis page too cos well nt a clue how it actualy looks like lol so that be something to think tru lol but yeah still feel pretty much down the hill as lost my bank card yestrday wich makes me feel unorganized even yestrday was thinking what the hell I’m actually doing with my life etc well nt a good sign but I’m trying get back into the positive rutine so see what hhapens but for now bit of fam guy and sleep with hope for better week
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