vitamin c will save the day

Good evening people. Let’s have glass of vitamin c and drink up for feeling better ! Finaly did the stupid video . As you can see it kind sucks ass as you can see for your self in the previous post of mine. Still like million things to do so taking on masive doses of vitamin c to get it all going . Feel good and positive . Tomarrow blood giving day too so that’s good . I’m doing it I’m doing it . Xx

so not feeling it

Despite waking up nicely I’m not feeling the joy today just wana sleep thought will do so in train but no death note keeping me awake just wnt read it all in 1 go lol just in middle of nr 5. Seems that its becoming too much of my mind lol I want my own ryuk lol

getting there

feel like been productive day.  as sorted my hair and and main thing i put my shoes on and my tattoo is not hurting at all wich i kind of dreaded.  and well i was stearing at it earlyer and thought hmm i kind like it how it looks when not colored in but i think it would look lots better if i would have a matching one on the other side but i dnt know if id be ready to go trough that pain again lol.  it hurt so god damn bad lol it better look good and fingers crossed it wont need tuch up. 
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and my bf was not helping me not to cover all of me in tattoos by buying me big pack if antiseptic wipes. . wich was kind only thing stoping me.  he got me pack of 100 +first aid pre injection wipes.  but im not leting my self to fall for temptations lol.  wait till this heals and then. lol
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over all im getting there just finishing packing my christmas gifts too.  and overall feel positive and pretty ready for christmas.  plus rocking a no shame look too.  wich is fab and obvious way to.  go 🙂
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cant get up

This week been so with me and so against me well most day this week I could sleep in cos practicaly no uni this week but now that I have to get up for it its just torture . That’s the thing if it be like 7 in morning it be ok but now its like no lol plus 1 of my eyes feel kind funny just hoping no infection there . Plus I gona attempt get ready with me video as I go along. And then atempt to actualy arive in uni by 2pm just dnt wana move lol so lazy

feeling chubby..

Just hate that feeling I get when I get dressed and I see that my tummy or backside is sticking out and nt in nice way . Like me for example I wear size 6 tops but my botom half is usualy size or 2 biger. It seems small but u know its allways how u as person feel . And I never felt proud of my body top half good to go bottom dear god no . So now as uni is starting ill be more bussy so won’t be able concentrate on food as much. I gona really start geting my self in the shape I want so I feel comfortable in it . In some way I always admired people who feel really good in their skin no matter what size or shape they are and I think that’s wht makes a person beautiful .cos if u feel good about ur self u get further cos u have 1 less thing on ur mind to worry about . Hate the fact that u go down the street or something and people say u look nice etc etc etc u say tnx but in heart u feel like ur just a big blob rolling down the street . So I thought with start of uni I gona try make it better and at least work out at evenings do them 100 sit ups and crunches for the better life we forgot about