so unbelievable finally happened and im not ill anymore and i finished my essay, just about to just sit and print it out and be me all ready for tomorrow and my return to society and well wearing anything else besides shirt with a sheep on it lol cos obvious thats so goth lol . miss my lovely platforms. but im on rolle today gona go help my dad with kids too at 5 too so get my exercising back but must thank being ill for past week cos i lost my winter tire too so have good point to start exercising etc. feel pretty positive plus main thing its london time in 2 days so so soo can wait cant believe its been over an year since last been there. feel well hyped woop
So it finaly happened over a year later I’m ill I’d be ok about being ill but I have deadlines next week so I feel tottaly f ed . Already asked about extention etc so see how goes just feel bit out there cos might need change the times I go scotland can’t channge london but no choice . Just sucks bad time 😦
so are you ready for the 2014? i know i am im so so supper exited im thinking this gona be great year. as im in uk i still have about 5 hours to go so im just waiting for the meal making some last minute posts abiut bits and bobs and over all i hope you all have lovely and exiting new year and we get some of the one day list checked off and over all lets dance people. its gona be great.
so finaly finaly im not gona be living in a cave! lol. my beloved parents got me an amazing bad ass lamp from grandview gallery ( http://www.grandviewgallery.com ) and its bloddy perfect. only thing i need get a white bolb for it so ill be able to do videos in the dark now too which is pretty bad ass. lol the head bit if u will lol moves about and the leg bit too and im tottaly tottaly in love with this gorgeous creation. lol i clearly dont need much
sorry about bad background just at moment its sitting on the floor cos i havnt found the perfect spot for it.
So final24h have started till ill be oficialy born lol well reflecting on past 20 years sweems that I maybe in way could have do more and like established a name of my self but in same way I think I have got where I wanted be at this stage I knew I wouldn’t be able to even go uni and stuff if I’d be in latvia so in profesional sence I have more than I would have . So its nt bad I have a great long term boyfriend that I love to bits and that loves me for me . I have best friend that’s still fab in her own way . And u know everything seems to be in order . And I way I do look forward to my bday I know it not gona be amazing adventure full and what else not but I do prefer just hanging out with my family have night In. Get some salad thing on the go . So yeah .
a bit more serious video about me geting fed up with everyone thinking that i have problematic depressing life lol.
So as am out and about and left house way too early decided just go around the town see maybe something good in shops. So i happily walk into new look. As much as i like lots of their stuff i hate their changeing rooms svear to god i never feel that chuby and over all discostingly looking as there. So i want try out this dress happy size 6. I take off my shirt and see my self. I honestly wanted to cry. What the hell they ment help look people look good not like f ing monsters lol. I did ended up buying the little dress but now confidnce down the hill. Todays look not doing it for me any more..
Like said in one of the posts before that I gona write an email to the main guys of dominos of how my meneger acts etc and about 2 dudes discosing how I look and 1 them telling my mum that my bra is too high. And in sence never though it could come ot as a sexual asult . But guy comenting on my underwear almost lost his job as in uk every 1 takes it super serious on sexual offences bullying and stuff like that wich in my case worked well for me. But he got away with an official warning as its first time something like that happens. But yeah guy was like little angel towards every girl in the building lol . Think he just kind imagened too much of him self and think what hurt him more is that a woman took him down like this lol briliant. Mum was there when the meneger told him all this as both them were called in to talk about what I hav said and is it true and she says u cud see panic in his face as he cud hav lost the work place as he is 1 the people who move to dif country and don’t bother learning the language so if he hav had lost his place guy would have been in big big troble but honestly he needed get told straight that this is not f ing latvia where things like this do not get noticed .