you may ask what is stopping one to be truly happy , must say in past couple weeks time i have discovered that it is always people involvement. ill specify that . the people who you may not want to be as involved as they want to be. it feels like ongoing thing couple weeks to get over madness then when you start think oh you know its not to bad . someone comes along and disturbs it again and this vicious circle keeps going on and on and on. its like there is no escaping it. which leads me to think is there really possibility for better life if other people are involved. obvious i want a few people in my life but would it effect their lives for better too if i do something about mine. but lets face it some changes need happen. job for a start would be nice change . but that seem to never to happen. sadly .. but at least uni is going well at moment. went to this art and thereness elective obvious at previous day email argument with the teacher person which was obvious fun but other ways been not too bad have plan with plenty things to do but right now im thinking bit job search shower and pink panther cartoon marathon . that will defo be improvement of my life. hah
So since been working have noticed that my look is well losened up even when I’m off work . Hate the fact that have used to wearing lose tops and random trausers . Aint a good look at all . Plus the fact I have no sports activities what so ever thinking that need double up my work outs every day cos I noticed I have been losing weight but I know on this case its my muscle mass nt my fat . I dnt mind the job its a good and easy work but just seems I’m paying for it with my identity ..
Its official. My second day in job . Yes I’m being a working woman with house husband lol. Nt minding life like this . Easy job, great man at home . That’s the way to the real person world. Only need leave house at 5 o’clock . So is bit early but means I get home quicker . I know its notting amazing job ways . But like I always say . Job is a job. And if one needs money one needs to work . So honestly feel like life going the right direction for a change . Happy
Today is friday the 20st of june, my official name day , as mentioned before yes we are latvians we are freaks and we celebrate name days lol . So let’s rise our drinks to me lol. Just been kind drinking tea from my new tea cup/pot that my parents gifted me along with this super soft trow with same flower theme . Will prob make haul some point in next couple day to share the good stuff . But back to siting thinking and drinking lol. You know getting that feeling hmm another year past . And done f all with my life lol as per usual . Looking back havnt been that bad of year tbh . If nothing at least have started my youtubeing properly and enjoying it and printing slowly starting too . Feels like was year for starting things out . Is that good ? Dunno . But we are keeping it positive with the salad thing and bbq later on and chocolate cake too . So must say can’t complain. Food and gifts defo a good combination haha
Oh oh oh sweeties of the year . Lol I feel like a child . My bf sent me these angry birds sweets and must say it felt like going back to when was tiny kidy lol they literary are the bestest sweeties ever. I feel so so bad that we can’t get these in uk and they need be ordered but god they tasted so so soo good.
day 5 : your proudest moment
this is definitely a though one.. just i dnt really feel proud of my self and things that i have done as im 21 year old and i have no good start for say my carrier and things like that. i do feel proud that i got in uni cause if i would have been staid in latvia it wouldnt have happened. and there obvious is some little things but to not go in details i have lately felt bit down the hill cause of the feel of underachievement, so im just being honest and saying i dont know what is my proudest moment.
Well as person who does not drink and is pretty straight edge I must say I have not been to many. Hav seen like manson and wednesday 13 couple times and some others too but like say I go out more for the music nt for drunken nigh out like most people do . So I can’t really talk much about this as its simply not my thing there is no other coment s to it . Yes I’m unsocial lol
So this is pretty easy as well there is only 2 places where I have permanently lived .
1. Riga the capital city of latvia . Yes its in europe lol I was born there and lived first 14 years of my life there
2. Nottingham, england, uk. Moved here with my parents and sadly still stuck here but london always motivates me to trive for it . Even just a tiny bit .
Here is beautiful picture of the castle and view of the river and city centre of riga . Do miss its beauty .
This week been so with me and so against me well most day this week I could sleep in cos practicaly no uni this week but now that I have to get up for it its just torture . That’s the thing if it be like 7 in morning it be ok but now its like no lol plus 1 of my eyes feel kind funny just hoping no infection there . Plus I gona attempt get ready with me video as I go along. And then atempt to actualy arive in uni by 2pm just dnt wana move lol so lazy