so it’s finally officially my last weekend as a student. this is literary it. what gona kill my brains now lol. also starting the next week fresh as a good little person with waking up at 7 to start work at 8. lol i was even thinking about getting a bike so i could roll to the work and save money and get skinny legs at the same time lol definite grown up thinking there. but honestly not sure that can believe that pretty much this is the end for my education at least for this time being. its been very very quick. i feel like now i need find new almost like purpose or even better a goal to aim for till now was to finish uni which now is ticked off just need wait till graduation that’s in september but in sense that just lie celebration not the end cos the end is now. even got a cute card from my parents and boyfriend graduating me . i thin this is good time to look at my one day list again and see what could be my next big aim in life. its like suddenly all these exiting doors have opened and i wana go thru them all. lol ok im definitely not a grown up yet.
If you have style of your own and u definitely don’t fit in with the norms then unless your lucky at least at 1 point in your life you will have to change being of ur self for couple hours every day to become “appropriate” for the working enviroment. Just because u simply want eat and dnt want live in cardboard box under a bridge. Since I been working since start of the year I feel that despite still having same look outside work it just feels like I’m losing the things and the look that I love and want . I must say in some sence its nice that no 1 overly judges u by way u look and dnt say that ur an idiot just beacuse all ur face is painted or something but same time it sucks so bad I miss my make up and stuff and just simply being able to express your self the way you want and ur left with these f ed up limitations that some1 somewhere have came up with its ridiculous . One can’t be one self this way . no wonder lots of people feel depresed even when they do work in their dream job and are somebody and still feel that they have to be “normal” looking to get somewhere and moment u say what u actualy thing they just show u the door. Think people should try stand ground more for what they want and not what the society asks for . Freedom of expression is needed heavily . Cos otherways we lose our souls and real needs from life