ok, this feels like the longest day ever . been up from like 10 o’clock which i thought that’s good can get up and take on. you know bit of smart thinking forward. so being a good child and being a good partner i thought ill do my weekly house clean. i was too dead after training yesterday so i moved it to today , usually its my Saturday thing. honestly i feel sweaty and dusty and just yuck but hey at least the house looks clean . some sense feels like i could have spent this day doing something else cos now i just wana sit i my bed watch a random show and play family guy game. feel kind of sad. despite obvious wanting show my future husband that ill be a good homemaker i could not do this on every day basis cos ill simply lose my mind. even now feels like spending too much time at home so i dnt now if i could do it as stay at home mum etc . no freaking way lol i know lots people want that but i just cant imagine myself in that position. just cant, plus all the other responsibilities of a house wife , im thinking ill have a househusband and ill be the bread bringer no objection to that ..
mini haul of various gifts and other bits and bobs
so first day in weeks time when i feel like a person again. just been feelin so tired yesterday and today at least no more 39 temperature at least didnt went too hight this time only to 39.1 its super high for some but as i get ill super rare its normal even quite low as didnt need take anyting to take down the temperature , just gona try type up my essay in time for thusrtday see how goes. and must say im ready to leave the bed tomarow even just go post office get some fresh layer of clothes and bedding and be ready to take on again woop:)
Just sitting in my chair thinking damn dnt think hav left house in past week only to go work . At least saving money as finaly bought tickets to latvia and will need money for that + 2 trips to scotland and possible trip to london too just be so so without anything after but be worth it. Realy can’t wait tbh feel like been living in my bedroom walls for forever lol need roi socialize I guess and kill my hatreid for human contact lol