finally finally i got a job interview. sadly notting too crazy just a job in a caffe but would love to get this job. at least im hopeing that i charmed them enought plus they were pleased about my previous kitchen expierence in the dominos. lol never thought that be a good job reference . but job is a job and it would give me money thats all i need lol .
so here is quick video of my make up of the day . very turned down ad not really my liking . but here you go.
continuing on unbelievable things happening yes im making my very own web page. i have finally drafted the outlook of it so i can just slot my pics in it etc. and planing to hopefully publish it by the end of this week obviously there will be updates etc on it with some stuff half done . but the thought is there . im using wix.com to create it . they have lots of exiting templets to use and you can totally mix everything up and its supper easy once you get the hang of it . so must say im even looking forward to making this happen .
only thing at the moment the webpage will be for my art stuff only as i just simply need it for my university course but i think after this is done i will make it all about me kind of thing lol . its great to make things about your self lol its like im somebody lol .
but going on art theme here is one of my old art videos i made like 4 year ago just give you a glimpse.
Its great to feel that i have definitely made the right choice with the man im with . Despite all the zig zags we had its them little moments that make me realise its been woth more than i could ever give. Like when woke this morning turned to look at him and he moved looked at me and put out ghe most beautiful smild there is and it just felt like the bestest thing there is . Feel happy .
Past couple days i have been looking trough my old sketchbooks from my a levels and foundation level and even from 1st year in university and it seemed that they are more interesting more creative more experimental than anything i do now . Just had this like a sudden realization that maybe im not as creative as i used to be. Like i now have some kind of restriction despite being more free to do any work i want. In some sense i understand why im not too keen on it. And well that is cos of the hatred towards uni but same time shouldnt that be the place where i actualy express my feelings into? I cant exactly make my self be relaxed and do work lol . But i think my plan of action is to get a good size sketchbook no a5 nonsensse and start doing it for my self not for uni not for selling and ot for anything else. Almost out uni anyway sobe plenty time to concentrate on it . I tnink main thing is to get the mind motivated and be ok
At least the pony is painted so just to get hanged on the wall when get in after that the hour to kill till another group critique . Always feel like people are not completely honest with me about my work .instead of saying I don’t like that its extremely offensive just take it off your wall they try to find some weird deep meaning to what’s what . I’m not drawing a fetish pony cos I have weird urge to see dressed up horses , I do it cos the sketch of a gas mask for horses turned out good and I wanted to take it to the next artsy level. but hey according to my art tutors its not good enough to base idea on. I still sometimes wonder have I wasted 3 years of my life with doing a fine art course . In college it was different, I actually felt like I’m learning something where here I’m not too sure I actually have. Besides obviously improving my hatred towards group activities and possibly putting me off ever wanting take part in group exhibition . Pretty sure its not what I’m meant to be learning here . But on the bright note . Its my birth day tomorrow and ill be nice and far away from this hell hole . At least for a day to get my head together . Feeling pleased
Day 5: photo of your favorite memory
As previouss post was for yesterday I decided do one more . For this I chose picture of me and my bf from 1st day he came down . At moment it is my favorite memory cos its one of the best things that have ever happened to me. The pic it self pretty tragic but the thought is there lol
just small video with me talking about how i stay skinny
day 27 : whats in your closet
well whats not in my closet. i have a small walk in closet wich i feel blessed with lol. on one side i keep all my clothes the ones for street are always hanged and rest folded on top of all that there is a shelf where i keep my bags and random fabric bits. then turning to the side from that on a wall i have a one day area with things i want to have etc you know if u can see it and believe it you can make it happen. lower there is like a fabric pockets where i keep brushes some hair things and nail files. unfer that i have four boxes where i keep my underwear usualy on top of the boxes you can see my sports stuff and hair straighteners and a jewelery box aloso a hat box with a mini hat in it. then on the last wall there is a large mirror with small shelfs around that have my perfumes jewelery tablets tossues and random nick naks on. on the mirrror i have all my neclaces hanged. allso there is couple pics with my boyfriend parents and best friend. on the floor i have a box with my make up items and all my other beauty products like creams sprays hair stuff and bits like that. also on the side whit the big shelf for clothes underneath i have some shoes and a luch box and some folded up make up bags and some soft fluffy house slippers. it all just sounds like its a lot but its actualy not that much lol
so today was lovely lazy day in the house. but i got to wear my new top that my lovely boyfriend got me from a concert he went to just cos i really loved the design.
top -gifted
shorts -very very old maybe primark not too sure
Day 24: what attracts you ( in love)
For me personally I think its all the usual stuff like I want the person to for start be attracted to me and they have to be honest and loyal to me and supportive and all that kind good stuff . I think it is important that I’d find my other half physically attracted too. I member reading like interview or something and the woman said that she not only wants to be a caring wife but a passionate mistress too . Which I think is great saying . And yes I think that’s what I want from the person I’m with and as a plus points for me I get too hehe . Lol.
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