First day as a grown up

This is literary my 1st day as a grown up. Got up at 6am to get to work at meaningless job that kills anything creative there is . Now casualy on a brake having my 3d hot chocolate. As I check my bank account  and think how poor I am. It’s great. But good thoughts are there as work out in the evening and followed by work on Web page and early sleep as tomorrow is another exiting day. Definitely  it’s time to make money better way. Need a plan and a goal I think. Def thinking material for the day because if I will have to do this for rest my life I gona kill someone lol 

the end

so it’s finally officially my last weekend as a student. this is literary it. what gona kill my brains now lol. also starting the next week fresh as a good little person with waking up at 7 to start work at 8. lol i was even thinking about getting a bike so i could roll to the work and save money and get skinny legs at the same time lol definite grown up thinking there. but honestly not sure that can believe that pretty much this is the end for my education at least for this time being. its been very very quick. i feel like now i need find new almost like purpose or even better a goal to aim for till now was to finish uni which now is ticked off just need wait till graduation that’s in september but in sense that just lie  celebration not the end cos the end is now. even got a cute card from my parents and boyfriend graduating me . i thin this is good time to look at my one day list again and see what could be my next big aim in life. its like suddenly all these exiting doors have opened and i wana go thru them all. lol ok im definitely not a grown up yet.

Jobserch once again..

Finally finally on my last week of uni. Had big hopes that be able to work all week but nothat would be just too muchto be asked. So ended up spending couple hours job serching and applied to about 7 jobs. Kinda low but its the serches in the field of printmaking rather than rando  jobs.i just want a stable job at moment not really matter what . Cos u know need pay rent etc. This been driving  me insane lately but i guess thats what happens when the joys of being the child finishes.one week and ill have to be a proper grown up lol. Like that is litterary ever going to happen. But at least the thought is there .

Interview . Day 2?

If you seen my last post it was about me going to a job interview  in this caffe. So good things happened and they called me yesterday saying i  need to attend this kind of interview but like a more practical based. So here i am sittig in nero drinking milkshake as im 1 the  people who Arive supper early so have another 20 min to kill before i even walk over to the place. Must say pretty exited. Guess this kind means they liked me and put me forward so one more day to do and hopefully job will be mine. I think they are taking more than 1 person on so at least more chances of getting it. Will need work my bumcheeks off for wile tho so all bills payed off etc . But i liked that if i do stay here i can turn the job in full time if i decide to stay there after i finish uni . So pretty pleSed. Plus early shifts mean i can easily be in uni by 12 or 1 oco0lock. Only thing they said i can be put anywhere in the work space like 1 day i could be in the till next in the kitchen . But at least gives me like people expierences too . Till i punch some old woman for trying to buy an over priced muffin lol .

Thanks for all the people who wished me luck and keeped fingers crossed for  me 🙂

getting ready for an interview

finally finally i got a job interview. sadly notting too crazy just a job in a caffe but  would love to get this job. at least im hopeing that i charmed them enought plus they were pleased about my previous kitchen expierence in the dominos. lol never thought that be a good job reference . but job is a job and it would give me money thats all i need lol .

so here is quick video of my make up of the day . very turned down ad not really my liking . but here you go.

Will things become better?

Just got good news from my mum she got the job she just so happy now . Wich makes me feel like things gona change and turn for better at least for now. Just my boyfriend to charm the interview people and we be on a role . So fingers crossed for that well forgoten better life . Just thouht i share a goodness of the day .

New record cabinet

My boyfriend had exiting day today as he finaly found place where to store all his piles of records. We went in one of the charity shops and seen this cabinet for 10 pound it has tiny bit damage on the top but we thought yeah looks good but the meneger person seen us kind of walking away from it and said if we buy it now we can get it for 5 . And we looked at each other and it was a must have . We did had some trouble with getting it bCk to the house as it did not fit in the car so we ended up getting the delivery but they delivered it today before we even got back home so its all stuffed with his records just looks really good plus now i know what get for him for his bday haha  as his player been quite old and broken so would be nice with new. 

Another good thing happened he finally got a job interviw for a senior carer so fingers crossed . Same with  y mum she waiting for her third part of interview tomarrow. So looks like things finaly turning fir best. Feeling possitive and encoriged for work.

Talking about work really been thinking about reinventing my youtube and this blog and in progress of making a webpage too . So lots to do but ill be updati g as much as i can with random stuff thats happening. Must say after bad sleep and extreme tiredness its been a really good day.

Tomarrow thinking could do a make up video and redoing my hair dyeing expierence lol .

But for now good night people .

why cant one have the better life?

you may ask what is stopping one to be truly happy , must say in past couple weeks time i have discovered that it is always people involvement. ill specify that . the people who you may not want to be as involved as they want to be. it feels like ongoing thing couple weeks to get over madness then when you start think oh you know its not to bad . someone comes along and disturbs it again and this vicious circle keeps going on and on and on. its like there is no escaping it. which leads me to think is there really possibility for better life if other people are involved. obvious i want a few people in my life but would it effect their lives for better too if i do something about mine. but lets face it some changes need happen. job for a start would be nice change . but that seem to never to happen. sadly .. but at least uni is going well at moment. went to this art and thereness elective obvious at previous day email argument with the teacher person which was obvious fun but other ways been not too bad have plan with plenty things to do but right now im thinking bit job search shower and pink panther cartoon marathon . that will defo be improvement of my life. hah

uni starting..

So its another saturday morning when I almost miss my work cos trains at least manager people being understanding and letting me get the next train and be at work hour late . Last time I forgot that it starts earlier at saturdays all together so I have improved . Starting uni in 2 weeks too so see how ill manage part time . You know the jobs not bad its easy etc but its been what 2 and half months since started it and I’m extremely bored of it . Like the other day me and my bf were talking about tattoos and I’m quite determined to decorate my hands . He’s like “no chance for u to get a normal job then” you know I dnt want normal job I want excitement I want do something that ill love not miss my train cos I dnt think its ok to get 3h early to get to work . Is it bad to think like that?

losing the look cos have to work?

So since been working have noticed that my look is well losened up even when I’m off work . Hate the fact that have used to wearing lose tops and random trausers . Aint a good look at all . Plus the fact I have no sports activities what so ever thinking that need double up my work outs every day cos I noticed I have been losing weight but I know on this case its my muscle mass nt my fat . I dnt mind the job its a good and easy work but just seems I’m paying for it with my identity ..