thoughts on weight and stuff

so must say it have recently struck me down bad time. i have a winter tire and im really not happy about it.  i noticed even when was in scotland at my boyfriends i felt really shy about it and if i had just like my bra on or a short top and i had to sit down i put my arms around my self to kind cover my belly.  and i honestly avoid mirrors.  i have a large mirror in my closet and if i have change clothes or something my back is always turned to it.  i feel ok if everythings covered but if need show skin then its like nooo…  just feels like some weird mental thing or something.  but i dnt know just gona try work out every moment i get and cut down on crazy much and portion sizes.  cos i felt so good last summer where now i litterary feel like a fatass.  and im not ok with it and something need be done.  so today gona mesure everything and see what needs improvements the most and then just work out. all the time. specialy now when the uni is practicaly done, 

so heres a pic of me.  no shame. but wearing my new top from h&m. got it yesterday well pleased.

Still being stressed out about the swim suit wearing later on this month when will be in latvia and will hav chance to go to the beach. When was in scotland I decided that when get back ill exersise everyday etc etc which well clearly isn’t happening cos its to warm and I just dnt want to move pure and simple so I thought of better way I cud be losing weight but still doing and eating most things I like . So its pure and simple no more sweeties . It is bit hard specialy if ur sweety lover like my self where at some points it just seems it candy I eat all day so I thought if I dich the sweets and let the pounds drop. Been going sweet free for just over a week and must say 2 cms off my waist and I’m back to magical 66cms but my legs still need lots work so no sweeties for me do sugest try this if u want to lose bit weight without actualy trying 🙂