Feel happy for a change

Its great to feel that i have definitely made the right choice with the man im with . Despite all the zig zags we had its them little moments that make me realise its been woth more than i could ever give. Like when woke this morning turned to look at him and he moved looked at me and put out ghe most beautiful smild there is and it just felt like the bestest thing there is . Feel happy .

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30 day blogging challenge day 14

Day 14: photo of someone you can’t imagine your life without

No question about it for this one. Its my beloved boyfriend . He means absolute everything to me . I’d go trough hell and back for him . And I’d never ever will let anyone take my place in his life . He’s my everything and I couldn’t be more great full to have him here with me .

30 day blogging challenge day 13

Day 13 : photo of your favorite band or artist

Well I can’t deny this . I think this have to be manson. But early manson not last 2 albums manson lol . I been listening to it for since can member my self and it been great inspiration of how I dress etc so I think I can easily put him as my favorite

30 day blogging challenge day 12

Day 12: photo of something you love

Think 1 thing I love for sure is animals. Always have and always will. I mean how can one not love the fluffy little things. Just so cute. Plus I still really really want a rat. But with 7 cats dnt think its the way to go lol . At least have my rat in a jar . He’s a cutie too.

30 day blogging challenge day 24

Day 24: what attracts you ( in love)

For me personally I think its all the usual stuff like I want the person to for start be attracted to me and they have to be honest and loyal to me and supportive and all that kind good stuff . I think it is important that I’d find my other half physically attracted too. I member reading like interview or something and the woman said that she not only wants to be a caring wife but a passionate mistress too . Which I think is great saying . And yes I think that’s what I want from the person I’m with and as a plus points for me I get too hehe . Lol.

the ups and downs

just be tottal ramblings in this post.lol i nt been posting past couple days as just cant get my mind together everything seem to kind distract me in a sense. with uni and my bf being stressed to fuck and my mum the same so its jut yuck cos obvious noone wants to see people you love be unhappy.but u know life is life and cant do anything about it. at least there is some good things happening too. as uni be done im keeping fingers crossed for getting job i cant wait tbh i need money and kind need something to keep my mind bussy too need sort some bits about my screen printing to as i want to kind of start printing t shirts and stuff . ill keep you updated about that too so something to look out for. but for now i finaly just wana get under covers and sleep as have early training tomarrow and still like million things to do tomarrow so yeah

 

30 day blogging challenge: day 6

Day 6: what are you afraid of?

This seemed like really easy question cause I can straight answer it without thinking . There is 2 things that I’m heavily afraid of

1. Losing people I love. Not only as in sense that something would happen to them but in sense that something would happen and they wouldn’t want me in their life for what ever reason. Its just a hurtful process no-one wana go trough.

2. Water as in sea oceans and massive wave. That stuff scares the life out me and if I have nightmares at night its always some big ass wave killing me lol so no I don’t do water .

on way back from scotland

so been 2 weeks full of adventure in scotland.  and must say im coming back much more happyer than befire and u know the light at the end of tunnel is shinig so its gona be good.  got to see my sweet boyfriend again as been ages and we had time to go to ayr too we went there some longe time ago its just small sea side town in scotland like hour in train from glasgow and was well good little day trip we bought so much junk on way too like goi g trough new and unexpected charity shops lol. i will prob try to do a trift haul with all the little nick nacks i got cos as per usual there is a big ass bag for way home. 

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we even made a little sign in the sand for memory of bill hicks he was a comedian from usa you should check him out he was awsome plus the pics i took with the writing turned out really good too

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after couple days of my bf working he didnt felt so good and i was ill with some stomac bug too but duno at least was easyer for me as could happily stay in the bed unlike he cos work but hey here is pic of me looking even paler than usual at like 4am cos couldnt sleep proper and yes its a hedgehog soft toy that i used as a pillow lol

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then as the time moved forwards everything seemed ok my bf even bought some electric razors and obvious i was his first target so he shaved my side cut and done really well plus its lots shorter than usual so think it looks well better. i will post up some better pics tomarrow most likely. 

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and well yesterday we ended up going to the hospital because poor guys sholder was hurting really bad etc so hebit bandaged up now and bit buzzed way on pain killers to but we still went around this town bit and looked about aswasgreat day outside sunshine etc seems like summer is coming over. but must say was great 2 weeksand i cant wait to go back again. 

he means the world to me and i  ouldnt be without him

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back from scotland

So I came back from scotland this monday after an eventfull week with my sweet sweet boyfriend. When got there he blasted out this mega box of gifts and all these little things that just made him think of me so he got them just thought was the sweetest thing ever plus it kind made me finaly go get that new shelf yesterday as have lots to go on there . And well iit wasn’t the bestest week for us as well we havnt seen each other for months and then sudnly do again its bit u know ackward at times but I think it gave us time to talk things trough and well we actually have date when going back wich is in about 3 week not 3 months so definitely lots better than befor and we thought we been together almost 4 year y give up now . It comes with its harshness and its not geting easyer as I have to fight of heavy depersion every time I come back but I think its worth every moment for even the chance to be with him . Plus we only live once so y not be with person u wana be rather than just giving up. Guy is my absolute world and I’d cut my own leg off for him and I think after all this distance thing we will be stronger than ever and we be able apriciate the relationship more that way . Only to grow stronger . Never to give up. 13

must read : death note

my sweet sweet boyfriend sent me the 4th book of the death note manga series.   oh god i still so so so soooo love it.  its crazy.  its a must read if u have not seen it. im so tempted to watch the film but i want read the ending before i see it lol.  im still madly in love with ryuk hes so cute i want tattol of him on my arm lol.  you def need see some of it. i am not into manga never have been but i was super atracted to the story.  i just hate that books are like 6.99 in shops so need serch trought ebay to find good deal for it.  as i have done with couple of previous books. but its brilliant!
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