dnt know what to think. thoughts of the day

so as per any usual day at home i started with some youtube catch up and i recently subscribed to this random goth chick that as per usual as everyone else talks about things and one of her videos she posted recent was about gothic subculture. it literary makes me laugh that according to her perception anyone who doesnt listen to gothic rock is not goth and if they dont and still call them self’s goth then they are almost an error and failed part to the subculture so im like listening to this in pure tears from laughter lol i thought goths ment be pretty open minded lol. i dnt feel any less goth because she said all her saying its just makes me think wtf lol why would one even think these things so obvious me wanting to express my side . i thought i will do a small video about elitism and babybats and all that kind good stuff lol just share my thoughts on it too just cos i simply could. just sometimes i watch these videos and i just dont get why would one do this kind thing. its good to do like ones views on subculture as it is helpfull for people who just gets into it but like keep it that its just your thoughts not that everyone think that to me just instantly shows that person is bit too close minded that they can not imagen that there can be like 10000000000000.. exceptions to anything.

30 day random blog challenge day 24: 7 things that cross ur mind the most

So todays blog. 7 things that cross my mind the most .
1. My boyfriend. I think its kind obvious lol I love him to bits so it feels like I always having him in my mind
2. Family and friends. Like every other person that I care about .
3.University. At moment bad time trying sort everything etc. Its hard work.
4. Money. Well in who’s mind money isn’t specially if your a student .
5. Tsunamis. Cos I have massive fear of water and I hope we all won’t die from masive tsunami lol.
6. Trains. If u would live in trains as much as I do you would think about them too . Cos u never know when they will rise the prices again. Or who knows what else not .
7. Food. This prob should be 2nd in list lol I constantly think about food its crazy . I’m kind obsessed.

as goth how i feel people look at me ?

People always seem to ask me what do I think of how other people usualy react towards my look and how do I deal with it etc. My usual responce is I dnt really respond to it . Like I dnt care enough about the peoples thoughts on it and as I dnt care I dnt need deal with it lol obvious its nice if some 1 says that I look different and nice etc like in a lovely way but if its said in bad way I dnt really take notice of it because well clearly I’m stilla s important to them for them to actually say something lol. There is exactly 4 people in this word who’s opinion in my mind matters its my parents as they allways been suporting me and they always been there for me nomather what’s my choices same with my best friend and my boyfriend who is kind like my best friend to and every1 else can kind think what they want I apriciate the opinions of other people but sorry but I dnt care for them as much to adjust my self or how I look or act or what ever else I feel if one stands ones ground then one will get further rather than just being a wana be obvious I am kind a wanabe but then again we all are cos just way it is . But over all I dnt feel you should need to even respond to anyone who doesn’t matter to you and they trying give you nonsence comments . I’m my eye its like why bother they dnt care about you why should you care about them ?

So feels like art hav left me.. No inspiration notting . Feels like wudnt know where to start just duno plus so much stuf in mind which is not really helping to concentrate on artwork and the beauties of it .so think be starting something new today just get me going get me at least on some sort of habit cos I dnt want lose tho joys of art cos it does mean very lots to me just seems weird without it but nt sure where to start x