im not fat im big boned

Ever looked in mirror and thought damn what happened I was so skinny yestrday? That’s literary only way how to explain how I feel about my look today. Just feels that after yestrdays non stop eating I have gained a stone. When I step on scale there is no change but it doesn’t mean it makes me feel any better of my tummy lol in some sence it seems crazy to me cos I put a size 6 shirt on and it fits ok just dunno . Since my lovely best friend sent me a pic of me in beach wearing shorts and bikini top I felt horrofied . And thinking my 30 day jumping challenge is totally not working. Yes I’m still doing it . Mybe I should do sit up or something instead . To work on erm effected areas more . Cos with my super low blood pressure heavy diets are nt my friend so litterary duno. Just will need come up with something that actualy makes a difference .

So I been thinking u know its summer etc so maybe should try out bring bit of cheer in joy in the mopey life of a goth kid lol not like going complitely crazy with no make up or no black lol dear god pigs will fly before I do that but think bit of color will do so giving my self bit of chalange to do it . Obvious will be filming it and posting it up on my youtube chanel to get it going will need post up the posting the vids as still no charger arived but soon as it arives thers litle diy to go on and these be posted too . Wich is why kind didn’t do any crafts yestrday as can’t get it filmed and edited etc but soon to happen so keep in tuch 😉

Still being stressed out about the swim suit wearing later on this month when will be in latvia and will hav chance to go to the beach. When was in scotland I decided that when get back ill exersise everyday etc etc which well clearly isn’t happening cos its to warm and I just dnt want to move pure and simple so I thought of better way I cud be losing weight but still doing and eating most things I like . So its pure and simple no more sweeties . It is bit hard specialy if ur sweety lover like my self where at some points it just seems it candy I eat all day so I thought if I dich the sweets and let the pounds drop. Been going sweet free for just over a week and must say 2 cms off my waist and I’m back to magical 66cms but my legs still need lots work so no sweeties for me do sugest try this if u want to lose bit weight without actualy trying 🙂