First day as a grown up

This is literary my 1st day as a grown up. Got up at 6am to get to work at meaningless job that kills anything creative there is . Now casualy on a brake having my 3d hot chocolate. As I check my bank account  and think how poor I am. It’s great. But good thoughts are there as work out in the evening and followed by work on Web page and early sleep as tomorrow is another exiting day. Definitely  it’s time to make money better way. Need a plan and a goal I think. Def thinking material for the day because if I will have to do this for rest my life I gona kill someone lol 

Jobserch once again..

Finally finally on my last week of uni. Had big hopes that be able to work all week but nothat would be just too muchto be asked. So ended up spending couple hours job serching and applied to about 7 jobs. Kinda low but its the serches in the field of printmaking rather than rando  jobs.i just want a stable job at moment not really matter what . Cos u know need pay rent etc. This been driving  me insane lately but i guess thats what happens when the joys of being the child finishes.one week and ill have to be a proper grown up lol. Like that is litterary ever going to happen. But at least the thought is there .

my webpage!

its not tottaly finished yet and im still to sort the domain name but here it is my webpage! at moment as previously said it is mainly for my art work but once this is done i can turn it about a bit and make it a more general page including a shop and my other doings.

www.disspossable.wix.com/disspossable

Interview . Day 2?

If you seen my last post it was about me going to a job interview  in this caffe. So good things happened and they called me yesterday saying i  need to attend this kind of interview but like a more practical based. So here i am sittig in nero drinking milkshake as im 1 the  people who Arive supper early so have another 20 min to kill before i even walk over to the place. Must say pretty exited. Guess this kind means they liked me and put me forward so one more day to do and hopefully job will be mine. I think they are taking more than 1 person on so at least more chances of getting it. Will need work my bumcheeks off for wile tho so all bills payed off etc . But i liked that if i do stay here i can turn the job in full time if i decide to stay there after i finish uni . So pretty pleSed. Plus early shifts mean i can easily be in uni by 12 or 1 oco0lock. Only thing they said i can be put anywhere in the work space like 1 day i could be in the till next in the kitchen . But at least gives me like people expierences too . Till i punch some old woman for trying to buy an over priced muffin lol .

Thanks for all the people who wished me luck and keeped fingers crossed for  me 🙂

getting ready for an interview

finally finally i got a job interview. sadly notting too crazy just a job in a caffe but  would love to get this job. at least im hopeing that i charmed them enought plus they were pleased about my previous kitchen expierence in the dominos. lol never thought that be a good job reference . but job is a job and it would give me money thats all i need lol .

so here is quick video of my make up of the day . very turned down ad not really my liking . but here you go.

No inspiration today

Maybe  yesterday was a good day for working on my uni pronjects. Today feels like a dead end. So we just sitting here watching old batman and robin from like the 40s . Got to love some old times movies. But oh inspiration where are you
???
Have done at least something. It being that i made a contacts page here on blog. If you scroll down  the page you should find it there . Been thinking that really should sit down and sort my blog  a bit. But for now new contacts adds will do . Plus a nice picture of my self . Lol

Mail sent lets do things

Sent out the pack for my lovely giveaway winner so thats atleast done . Still so much to do for uni specialy but seems like I just do everything else instead. But im determined to get stuff done im even ticking things off in the list . Just waiting for my mum to leave so can pack up the christmas gifts too so thats out of the way . Till then tho seems like I meant to bee a pillow for tiny cat poor thing seems frozen . Got love  tiny cat she so cute

Tried to add picture but word press just not letting me so just posted it on my instagram @disspossable . Feels like it gona be long day today so better get going .. another day at home . Oh the life I lead

Week in..

its week gone since my birthday.. I know I know its only a week but already feels like im failing the list . The magical list of this year and never mind the one day list thats literary never to happen. Im half way into my book im still 64.5 kgs wich is just crazy been years since I weight this much but I joined noom coach again wich was great help to me last year I will make video on this cos I just want to share the goosd things . Uni ways if you been reading my ramblings i suck bad time . But im trying and planing spend all day tomorrow studying. In some sense I do feel kind of stuck feeling wich is not good same with my art im trying to relax etc and just put what ever on paper but obvious  its not exactly happening I just feel stuck in rutine I guess. Im usual found of good rutine  ut this def aint one. I think its time for great change . Its time to embrace it.

Anyhow lets stop the moaning im thinking christmas. I cant wait decorate my beautiful tree again usualy do it around mid of december. Have got some gifts too almost all for my  boyfriend  and litle bit for mum but have thoughts what get for dad and finish rest so im on track. Need  find something nice to put in my Christmas cards too as always . Must say pretty exited .

To finish of heres me of the other day lol . Told you no change since my birthday

all signs of jealousy

All happy signs of jealousy in me. No shame lol no shame. As per always been browsing my facebook and have noticed that literary everyone I know is going somewhere and doing things where I’m like no money need stay home and look sad lol. Cos seriously sometimes I just don’t get it. They same as me students not rich etc yet seems like everything’s possible in their lives. I mean what is this scosery lol tell me your secrets . I want be somebody too .

is this the right path?

Ever sat there and wondered if your going the right way in your carrier? Honestly I’m now sitting in my works canteen area drinking hot chocolate and wondering. What am I doing, where am I going with this . Will I be a somebody 1 day . At least enough of a sombody to provide for my family etc . Now that my youtube chanel is picking up I kind feel inspired to actualy start think what I gona do . Specialy knowing that just 1 year left . Honestly think I just need a bit of goal setting not like one day but bit more realistic . Maybe open a shop . That was good idea at start . But dunno. The joys of wondering mind..