worst day ever

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No inspiration today

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Maybe  yesterday was a good day for working on my uni pronjects. Today feels like a dead end. So we just sitting here watching old batman and robin from like the 40s . Got to love some old times movies. But oh inspiration where are you
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Have done at least something. It being that i made a contacts page here on blog. If you scroll down  the page you should find it there . Been thinking that really should sit down and sort my blog  a bit. But for now new contacts adds will do . Plus a nice picture of my self . Lol

Have i lost it?

Past couple days i have been looking trough my old sketchbooks  from my a levels and foundation level and even from 1st year in university and it seemed that they are more interesting more creative more experimental than anything i do now . Just had this like  a sudden realization that maybe im not as creative as i used to be. Like i now have some kind of restriction despite being more free to do any work i want. In some sense i understand why im not too keen on it. And well that is cos of the hatred towards uni but same time shouldnt that be the place where i actualy express  my feelings into? I cant exactly make my self be relaxed and do work lol . But i think my plan of action is to get a good size sketchbook no a5 nonsensse and start doing it for my self not for uni not for selling and  ot for anything else. Almost out uni anyway sobe plenty time to concentrate on it . I tnink main thing is to get the  mind motivated and be ok

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Week in..

its week gone since my birthday.. I know I know its only a week but already feels like im failing the list . The magical list of this year and never mind the one day list thats literary never to happen. Im half way into my book im still 64.5 kgs wich is just crazy been years since I weight this much but I joined noom coach again wich was great help to me last year I will make video on this cos I just want to share the goosd things . Uni ways if you been reading my ramblings i suck bad time . But im trying and planing spend all day tomorrow studying. In some sense I do feel kind of stuck feeling wich is not good same with my art im trying to relax etc and just put what ever on paper but obvious  its not exactly happening I just feel stuck in rutine I guess. Im usual found of good rutine  ut this def aint one. I think its time for great change . Its time to embrace it.

Anyhow lets stop the moaning im thinking christmas. I cant wait decorate my beautiful tree again usualy do it around mid of december. Have got some gifts too almost all for my  boyfriend  and litle bit for mum but have thoughts what get for dad and finish rest so im on track. Need  find something nice to put in my Christmas cards too as always . Must say pretty exited .

To finish of heres me of the other day lol . Told you no change since my birthday

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happy birth day to me

it finally have happened , another year have passed. must say this been a very very busy year. well for starters my boyfriend moving down to England, that’s pretty major i think . some other bits and bobs, but besides all the nonsense at summer its been a really good year.  to celebrate my parents gifted me 2 tickets to go to London, so i grabbed my boyfriend by the hand made him get up early and all the other good stuff and off we were. must say i felt great. just away from everyday at place i love with person i love whats better gift than that. overall we did lots of walking about seeing the main bits as it was my boyfriends first time in London. but obviously had to go to Camden. we went food searching there in the morning after the bus journey as both of us felt absolutely starved. don’t mean to sound racist but we noticed that there is every possible food choice but not British lol so we went for some Chinese instead. in between arriving and food we seen the Amy Winehouse monument too with was one of the things he wanted to see. we found it by accident in middle of Camden lock.

20141125_121326must say kind imagined the sculpture to be a bit bigger but maybe its just me. after stuffing our faces we just started walking down the main street to that other metro station just past the Camden town one . can never remember how its called. just cause we were in serch for drinks . seen this beautiful wall drawing of a parrot i just had to take a picture of it .

IMG-20141125-03265i mean how freaking gorgeous is this birdy. and it was massive too. just soo soo pretty. when finally ventured away from staring at walls lol we did go to National Gallery. where obviously i got told off for carrying a can then trying find a bin and only one being outside , i find bit strange. seen this painting too on which one of the women totally looks like the kid from this is England . lol even tried to tweet it

IMG-20141125-03268seems to be the running theme that pictures are not taken of anything actual lol. i could say we were just personalizing them lol . oh outside the National Gallery we seen a big blue cock too . obvious must take picture

IMG-20141125-03269it was beautiful. as you can notice in the picture the weather looks horrible cos it started to rain so the next hide out was Tate Modern, my boyfriend hated it lol he says he does not see the point n this art. and if this is art how can i not make it in art world as an artist. it did made me wonder. we walked around for a while there then sat down to have some hot chocolate . actually was surprised that the gallery sells it pretty cheep plus it was just magical. i even attempted to do an electronic drawing for this collage thing that they had but it didn’t how up. my guesses it has a massive filter and my picture was considered dirty. lol  but at least here is happy me with my hot chocolate and my drawing. no shame

20141125_170643obviously seen the main bits like the big ben and london eye and buckingham palace too and i cant say enough how much i love that city its like it never goes quiet its literary perfect . and first time spending time with my boyfriend there really meant lots to me and definitely made this one of my best birth days ever. so happy 22 to me great start to my better life plan . pleased

diary of a 3rd year fine art student . day 1 : pointless attendance

This been quite pointless day in my restart of university. As I woke late cos I was just not arsed enough to get up early to secure a nice space in the studio. I ended up sleeping till 8.20 and leaving the house at 8.30 pretending that I will catch the train at 9.20 which I obviously did not . But it at least gave me time to go buy a yearly student bus card taking away lovely chunk of 249.50 out my student loan . Always a great way to start the day . But still keeping it positive marched to the studios just find out there is no space left and me and couple other people have to wait till someone puts more walls up so bad space guaranteed exactly same as last year . So was pretty much going in turning around and coming back out . But I treated my self with a pretty new note book for this year and maybe even get some chinese or the good cakes .to keep this day rolling hopefully with no more badness .

i want to be skinny again

This is it yesterday it struck me heavily . I’m fat again. I hate it . Cos work I dnt have time to work out at day time and at evening I’m usually too tired to be bothered to do anything yet it does not stop me eating like a little piggy . So I think its time to take action. I gona cut down munch for everything I eat ill do 10 squats like did in good old days . And need come up with routine that can actually work for evening time rather than just skipping it . Like kate moss said nothing tastes as good as skinny feels . Could not agree with that more. So I think its time for action . Finaly .