so it’s finally officially my last weekend as a student. this is literary it. what gona kill my brains now lol. also starting the next week fresh as a good little person with waking up at 7 to start work at 8. lol i was even thinking about getting a bike so i could roll to the work and save money and get skinny legs at the same time lol definite grown up thinking there. but honestly not sure that can believe that pretty much this is the end for my education at least for this time being. its been very very quick. i feel like now i need find new almost like purpose or even better a goal to aim for till now was to finish uni which now is ticked off just need wait till graduation that’s in september but in sense that just lie celebration not the end cos the end is now. even got a cute card from my parents and boyfriend graduating me . i thin this is good time to look at my one day list again and see what could be my next big aim in life. its like suddenly all these exiting doors have opened and i wana go thru them all. lol ok im definitely not a grown up yet.
you may ask what is stopping one to be truly happy , must say in past couple weeks time i have discovered that it is always people involvement. ill specify that . the people who you may not want to be as involved as they want to be. it feels like ongoing thing couple weeks to get over madness then when you start think oh you know its not to bad . someone comes along and disturbs it again and this vicious circle keeps going on and on and on. its like there is no escaping it. which leads me to think is there really possibility for better life if other people are involved. obvious i want a few people in my life but would it effect their lives for better too if i do something about mine. but lets face it some changes need happen. job for a start would be nice change . but that seem to never to happen. sadly .. but at least uni is going well at moment. went to this art and thereness elective obvious at previous day email argument with the teacher person which was obvious fun but other ways been not too bad have plan with plenty things to do but right now im thinking bit job search shower and pink panther cartoon marathon . that will defo be improvement of my life. hah
At least the pony is painted so just to get hanged on the wall when get in after that the hour to kill till another group critique . Always feel like people are not completely honest with me about my work .instead of saying I don’t like that its extremely offensive just take it off your wall they try to find some weird deep meaning to what’s what . I’m not drawing a fetish pony cos I have weird urge to see dressed up horses , I do it cos the sketch of a gas mask for horses turned out good and I wanted to take it to the next artsy level. but hey according to my art tutors its not good enough to base idea on. I still sometimes wonder have I wasted 3 years of my life with doing a fine art course . In college it was different, I actually felt like I’m learning something where here I’m not too sure I actually have. Besides obviously improving my hatred towards group activities and possibly putting me off ever wanting take part in group exhibition . Pretty sure its not what I’m meant to be learning here . But on the bright note . Its my birth day tomorrow and ill be nice and far away from this hell hole . At least for a day to get my head together . Feeling pleased
This been quite pointless day in my restart of university. As I woke late cos I was just not arsed enough to get up early to secure a nice space in the studio. I ended up sleeping till 8.20 and leaving the house at 8.30 pretending that I will catch the train at 9.20 which I obviously did not . But it at least gave me time to go buy a yearly student bus card taking away lovely chunk of 249.50 out my student loan . Always a great way to start the day . But still keeping it positive marched to the studios just find out there is no space left and me and couple other people have to wait till someone puts more walls up so bad space guaranteed exactly same as last year . So was pretty much going in turning around and coming back out . But I treated my self with a pretty new note book for this year and maybe even get some chinese or the good cakes .to keep this day rolling hopefully with no more badness .
Day 14: photo of someone you can’t imagine your life without
No question about it for this one. Its my beloved boyfriend . He means absolute everything to me . I’d go trough hell and back for him . And I’d never ever will let anyone take my place in his life . He’s my everything and I couldn’t be more great full to have him here with me .
Ever sat there and wondered if your going the right way in your carrier? Honestly I’m now sitting in my works canteen area drinking hot chocolate and wondering. What am I doing, where am I going with this . Will I be a somebody 1 day . At least enough of a sombody to provide for my family etc . Now that my youtube chanel is picking up I kind feel inspired to actualy start think what I gona do . Specialy knowing that just 1 year left . Honestly think I just need a bit of goal setting not like one day but bit more realistic . Maybe open a shop . That was good idea at start . But dunno. The joys of wondering mind..
little vlog about positive thinking and rat skulls lol random i know
Day 24: what attracts you ( in love)
For me personally I think its all the usual stuff like I want the person to for start be attracted to me and they have to be honest and loyal to me and supportive and all that kind good stuff . I think it is important that I’d find my other half physically attracted too. I member reading like interview or something and the woman said that she not only wants to be a caring wife but a passionate mistress too . Which I think is great saying . And yes I think that’s what I want from the person I’m with and as a plus points for me I get too hehe . Lol.
so are you ready for the 2014? i know i am im so so supper exited im thinking this gona be great year. as im in uk i still have about 5 hours to go so im just waiting for the meal making some last minute posts abiut bits and bobs and over all i hope you all have lovely and exiting new year and we get some of the one day list checked off and over all lets dance people. its gona be great.
Must say it have to be good personality I mean who is a person without good personality ? A nobody . So def good personality and plain looking cos everyone is gorgeous some people just dnt see it . Or you can hit the jackpot and be like me who dates good personality and really good looking lol . At this point I must say no worries on the edge . But 1 thing I think if u date someone you should be proud of showing them off and talking about them and be proud to say yeah this is my other half . Cos if its nt that then there is some things not going right way .