little vlog about positive thinking and rat skulls lol random i know

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what happened to the better life plan?

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so was kind sorting some bits in my room today and was thinking last year this time i decided to start a better life plan just by simply improving on the little things starting from working more on my look on the house then on getting a job doing well in school etc etc etc. i just kind seemed to have forgotten about it , and honestly i dnt know why . just seems kind strange that i have. so i thought i should try get back into it , u know actually make effort to do things and seems like i kind of started on it this week as today is 1st day for my challenge and i have been doing uni work every day and u know i do feel better . i did not go to the blood donation today tho cos my dad was not in mood to come with and i dnt like going places like that by my self tbh but we planing to go ether next Monday or next Thursday. will be good :). but i think at moment i need that like a boost to get every thing rolling the way i want to . we all know the little things matter the most meaning if u feel good you will do good . feel positive about this

 

so happy

so unbelievable finally happened and im not ill anymore and i finished my essay, just about to just sit and print it out and be me all ready for tomorrow and my return to society and well wearing anything else besides shirt with a sheep on it lol cos obvious thats so goth lol . miss my lovely platforms. but im on rolle today gona go help my dad with kids too at 5 too so get my exercising back but must thank being ill for past week cos i lost my winter tire too so have good point to start exercising etc. feel pretty positive plus main thing its london time in 2 days so  so soo can wait cant believe its been over an year since last been there. feel well hyped woop

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getting there

feel like been productive day.  as sorted my hair and and main thing i put my shoes on and my tattoo is not hurting at all wich i kind of dreaded.  and well i was stearing at it earlyer and thought hmm i kind like it how it looks when not colored in but i think it would look lots better if i would have a matching one on the other side but i dnt know if id be ready to go trough that pain again lol.  it hurt so god damn bad lol it better look good and fingers crossed it wont need tuch up. 
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and my bf was not helping me not to cover all of me in tattoos by buying me big pack if antiseptic wipes. . wich was kind only thing stoping me.  he got me pack of 100 +first aid pre injection wipes.  but im not leting my self to fall for temptations lol.  wait till this heals and then. lol
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over all im getting there just finishing packing my christmas gifts too.  and overall feel positive and pretty ready for christmas.  plus rocking a no shame look too.  wich is fab and obvious way to.  go 🙂
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better life

since went to latvia i feel like i had chance to think trough things that are happening in my life and in some sense look at them from different point and u know actually see the bad bits and the good not all mixed in big bobble called life . (keep getting distracted from writing this as think can smell gas.. nt good sign) so i decided i need work on the good stuff and make it even better ,u know make that one day list actually happen. become a somebody, a real person. so i thought i should start by sorting my self. work on my beauty routine health and fitness. as if one feels happy can make the rest the things go good too . first thing to do is well make a plan . bit by bit . yeah not every one make a plan to make a plan lol but thats erm my plan? and sort everything bit by bit and get that better life every one dreams of but not just as dreams but as my life 🙂