Week in..

its week gone since my birthday.. I know I know its only a week but already feels like im failing the list . The magical list of this year and never mind the one day list thats literary never to happen. Im half way into my book im still 64.5 kgs wich is just crazy been years since I weight this much but I joined noom coach again wich was great help to me last year I will make video on this cos I just want to share the goosd things . Uni ways if you been reading my ramblings i suck bad time . But im trying and planing spend all day tomorrow studying. In some sense I do feel kind of stuck feeling wich is not good same with my art im trying to relax etc and just put what ever on paper but obvious  its not exactly happening I just feel stuck in rutine I guess. Im usual found of good rutine  ut this def aint one. I think its time for great change . Its time to embrace it.

Anyhow lets stop the moaning im thinking christmas. I cant wait decorate my beautiful tree again usualy do it around mid of december. Have got some gifts too almost all for my  boyfriend  and litle bit for mum but have thoughts what get for dad and finish rest so im on track. Need  find something nice to put in my Christmas cards too as always . Must say pretty exited .

To finish of heres me of the other day lol . Told you no change since my birthday

my boyfriend sending me gifts

Once again my boyfriend being really sweet and have sent me cute little things. 1st is a pack of hair ties with little stone charms 2 peace signs 2 crosses and 1 skull . 2nd a lovely tote bag with a magical owl on it lol cos we have ongoing theme of owl with ears lol but like when u turn the bag around u can see the back of owl too lol which I thought was pretty cute . Both these were from primark which suprized me because I never seen any of these in primark cos I’d def be geting them my self . He knows me too well haha. And last little thing is this ray mysterio pin badge its like a little cross so it does go with my theme so thought can pin that on my bag or jacket or something .well made my day 🙂 . Allways gifting things to me always too much . But I do apriciate every bit he does for me 🙂 .

my christmas

are you same as me from some them weird people that celebrate christmas at christmas eve?  in this sence specialy like kid i never got the getting up in morning and getting your gifts cos you already got them the previous night.  but u know for me its not so much about gifts i just like that i can get together with mum and dad have a lovely meal have a laugh etc just nice family thing. i like that.   its alabout the christmas spirit.  i know i have been tough year etc but it was nice had some yummy food and chatted away.  sadly my bf couldnt join us this year cos his work and some other bits but at least get see him soon anyway so its all not that bad. all this did happen on 24th and traditionaly i always spend 25th as lazy as posible.  the less i move the better.  its food and films all the way.  and now that im finaly alive with my insides killing me cos too much food i feel like i can take on the day,  start on my uni stuff on bits that need be finished etc.  see i can act like an adult if i need to lol.  tomarrow tho will need leave the house cos need get some bits and bobs for the lady that always comes visit us over the new years.  shes like a family friend.  well look forward to that.  must say over all its been pretty good.  🙂