little vlog about positive thinking and rat skulls lol random i know
still been working on my wreck this journal , honestly feel like in past couple days during the bad events it have helped me a lot to relax etc and just zone out to my own little world . did this page today
im on pages 113 and 114 so far so slowly working trough it. the other day checked out keri smiths other books too and i have feeling that after some time i will have all of them , lol if notting at least keeps me bussy ,
Day 30: your hopes for your blog
Well in a sense I just wana be able to give out my opinion to the world about whatever is happening and I hope that I kind out maybe gives ideas to people or something . I already have more subscribers than I ever thought I will specially for my youtube channel . And I apriciate every 1 of my subscribers . Its nice to know that there is some like minded people lol. And u know the more the marryer 🙂
just be tottal ramblings in this post.lol i nt been posting past couple days as just cant get my mind together everything seem to kind distract me in a sense. with uni and my bf being stressed to fuck and my mum the same so its jut yuck cos obvious noone wants to see people you love be unhappy.but u know life is life and cant do anything about it. at least there is some good things happening too. as uni be done im keeping fingers crossed for getting job i cant wait tbh i need money and kind need something to keep my mind bussy too need sort some bits about my screen printing to as i want to kind of start printing t shirts and stuff . ill keep you updated about that too so something to look out for. but for now i finaly just wana get under covers and sleep as have early training tomarrow and still like million things to do tomarrow so yeah
so as per any usual day at home i started with some youtube catch up and i recently subscribed to this random goth chick that as per usual as everyone else talks about things and one of her videos she posted recent was about gothic subculture. it literary makes me laugh that according to her perception anyone who doesnt listen to gothic rock is not goth and if they dont and still call them self’s goth then they are almost an error and failed part to the subculture so im like listening to this in pure tears from laughter lol i thought goths ment be pretty open minded lol. i dnt feel any less goth because she said all her saying its just makes me think wtf lol why would one even think these things so obvious me wanting to express my side . i thought i will do a small video about elitism and babybats and all that kind good stuff lol just share my thoughts on it too just cos i simply could. just sometimes i watch these videos and i just dont get why would one do this kind thing. its good to do like ones views on subculture as it is helpfull for people who just gets into it but like keep it that its just your thoughts not that everyone think that to me just instantly shows that person is bit too close minded that they can not imagen that there can be like 10000000000000.. exceptions to anything.
so im just thinking about working more on the videos for my youtube channel just mix it up a bit . would nail videos be interesting . do people still do their own nails? lol im a student i cant aford to go get my nails done so always come up with random things my self i thought that be kind fun. i gues plus be something i do every day anyway so why not . u know some sponge action lol and have this new nail stuff in birch box too . i dnt know im like looking at other peoples vids thinking thats cool i cant clearly do that lol like now instead just going and doing im making a blog about it instead lol . failing as per usual.
Always thought that when I will turn 21 ill hAve bit different life than I have now. Just thought I’d atleast go usa for my bday but things never seem to turn out how one plans it. At least the new years is just around corner too and for some reason I feel that it will def be a good year and I will hav lots great time and at least find job lol so I can do things . In main areas I just want move in with my bf and travel somewhere new . Just seems so much to do but so little time but like say new year have to be a good year x