Just quick outfit of the day . Lol looking just beyond today just nt feeling right looking like this . Plus had change in a big ass tshirt anyway cos doing work dnt want my corset to get ruined so yeah it doesn’t help bit at least feel bit better I think its this tight skirt just nop .
just thought my winter goodness with the world .
in some sense this is kind obvious . the thing i dont like is that i feel chubby and i really need work on my legs . which i finally have started doing . i feel that the model look is amazing and i dnt think that its not achievable obvious would take time etc but y not . obvious i dnt mean kind skin and bones look but flat tummy small boobies little bum cheeks slim legs and yes the gap lol i would kill for the gap lol . i dnt want say yeah we should love our self the way we are blah blah blah . if you dnt like something about our selves we should do something about it for our selves. ok the thing i do like about the way i look is my style choice i love being goth it brightens up my day . 🙂
well i would take like 4000 and put it aside as amergency and pay off that months pills kind thing and with the rest have splurge week in london. go shoping go places wana go stay in nice hotel etc that be def my adventure id even be ok to do it alone f them lol its london i dnt need anything more
clearly have weird thing for it but if u have never gone u need to its like literary heaven for me. its crazy.
just random video i did today wile was bit bored
well honestly its been a pretty good week. lots of exiting things have happened. honestly the main one being me turning 21. in way cant believe its been a week already. gone quick. but feel prety good about my self feel like i embrace the adultness, u know applying for jobs, gona be doing volunteering too and working every night on my uni stuff and happily filling my folder and sketchbook. i think its great i think i have steped up a bit on my usual stuff. i mean evenmmy floor is not full with paper and stuff and its been a week lol. feel like a real person lol. finally.
lol yes i have a teddy to. i call him ted lol pretty basic stuff there lol
ok im not sexist or anything lol but we all have our little pet peevs about the people we choose to date lol my 5 things that iratate me about oposite sex are in no peticular order
1. lack of concentration its like guy what the hell is happening in you brain lol u lose interest in things so quickly its crazy just so easily distracted by literary everything
2. the man points. seems like ungoing theme with every guy i ever dated like he does something super sweet and romantic and straight after it he needs make up the man points by saying something stupid and killing it. aint a good thing lol
3. the obsesion if their man hood. the size does not matter if your using it right, unless obvious ur other half is into some freaky thing but for me personaly i do not care about how the thing looks or its size if u do a good job using it then its good. period
4. obsesion with looks. its the same thing that a woman does. im to fat my legs does not look good in these jeans etc etc. it ment be the womans thing but must say its kind cute in its own way
5. grabing out a word of a sentence and totaly miss understanding the whole idea. but must say every1s doing it cos i hate it about chicks too lol
so since i can remember my self people always compared my looks to young marilyn manson. always found it as a good thing tho. i mean look how good looking he was. lol obvious 1 bad sign like well i look like a man? lol its not that bad yet. well some people have thought befor that i look like man in drag tho. but allways loved it lol makes my life more wicked. haha