could never be stay at home housewife

ok, this feels like the longest day ever . been up from like 10 o’clock which i thought that’s good can get up and take on. you know bit of smart thinking forward. so being a good child and being a good partner i thought ill do my weekly house clean. i was too dead after training yesterday so i moved it to today , usually its my Saturday thing. honestly i feel sweaty and dusty and just yuck but hey at least the house looks clean . some sense feels like i could have spent this day doing something else cos now i just wana sit i my bed watch a random show and play family guy game. feel kind of sad. despite obvious wanting show my future husband that ill be a good homemaker i could not do this on every day basis cos ill simply lose my mind. even now feels like spending too much time at home so i dnt now if i could do it as stay at home mum etc . no freaking way lol i know lots people want that but i just cant imagine myself in that position. just cant, plus all the other responsibilities of a house wife , im thinking ill have a househusband and ill be the bread bringer no objection to that ..

scotland here i come

So cos bit of emergency I’m now on my way to scotland to save the day . In way at least 1 good thing out this . That well get see my boyfriend sooner than was planed . Besides that fingers crossed that everything goes well. Noone is dieing or anything like that just bit problems with house etc . I just hope tht when get out the train it won’t be as warm as in nottingham . Even now sitting in train obvious had chose the sun side . So happily dieing . At least prepared this time and hoping to spend no money in train . Have my drink and my snacks . And even had breakfast that I almost trew back up lol cos I’m not used to eating just after waking up . But for now nex 6 h can happily relax .

so not feeling it

Despite waking up nicely I’m not feeling the joy today just wana sleep thought will do so in train but no death note keeping me awake just wnt read it all in 1 go lol just in middle of nr 5. Seems that its becoming too much of my mind lol I want my own ryuk lol

feeling thin

unbalievable have happened and for change i actually feel thin. well i did lol. i took this picture just after training

you ever get feeling when you have good work out u go up to a mirror and think damn i look lots thiner than 2 h ago lol.  i always get that and then have massive breakfast or something. lol.  im just sitting here hoping that one day my  bottom half will look the same as the top half nice skinny and bit muscle here and there too obvious. cos even like today i bought some high waisted shorts they fit well around my legs and bum cheeks but are way tok wide for the waist so will need take them in a tiny bit.  legs always been my bad point,  but next year is the year when i make them nice one way or another

so whats next? better life

So clothes all sorted so can feel better about my self in looks ways and stuff so that’s a step forward 🙂 . As feel well into this ruto of sorthing things . I’m trying sort the things that for long time ment go on ebay and stuff that were just sitting there and when nets back well the ruter is nt working then sort my etsy too as there is litterary notting on . But be sure still to check it out etsy.com/shop/disspossable. Feel like on such role tho like trying sort everything u know the little things matter even if its just sorting the house or doing some small ritual every day that makes just u smile where every1 else just point and laugh.