reality

past couple days been thinking about the internet and the realization of people with in it. basically like a  week ago me and my boyfriend was shopping around charity shops as we were looking about this girl approached me and said she watches my video etc and obvious me totally failing got supper shy etc and all i could do is blush and say thanks. the more i thought about this the more it kind of makes me realize the 5000 people flowing me on youtube are actual people lol its like suddenly they have a face it’s no more just a number on my screen. i just dont know. its like my brain have had sudden realization there is people there not just me rumbling about nothing . must say it was great feeling to be a somebody for 2 seconds.

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a somebody?

Hi people , hope you had good easter or if your still celebrating hope your having fun. But that’s not the subject of the day , basically yesterday I discovered that this girl have made a drawing of me . Must say I was pretty amazed. Besides the fact its total copy of me but also that someone would do that . Never thought something like that would happen . Cos you have all these nice people etc and they picked me . Must say felt and still do feel well overwhelmed . I just wana run and yell yay I’m a somebody now lol
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its official

Its official. My second day in job . Yes I’m being a working woman with house husband lol. Nt minding life like this . Easy job, great man at home . That’s the way to the real person world. Only need leave house at 5 o’clock . So is bit early but means I get home quicker . I know its notting amazing job ways . But like I always say . Job is a job. And if one needs money one needs to work . So honestly feel like life going the right direction for a change . Happy

whats changed since i turned 21

so now couple days have passed since i turned 21 and became a grown up lol . and well i cant really say i feel any different but i do noticed that i feel like i need to work a bit harder as i am already 21 no time to waste to become a somebody . even now im spending most of my night studying and hoping that ill get good marks for the project specially if its not art work based so makes it super easy. feel a greater need to find a job too u know if one is an adult then one should work its ass off. obvious. so that’s what im doing . every night for past week now. just see how things go and what my new life as an adult bring. i feel good that my child hood have officially passed and i can definitely say that it was a great one 🙂

finaly a somebody

It was magical lol there was me siting in train back from uni hating the world as per usual mumbling to my self of how I hate the uni and waste money on this nonsence they give me then sudenly I receive an email from one of my tutors saying he remembers that my sketchbooks were good last year and he wants to show them as good example to the 1st year students . in my head I was like boom bitch lol I’m a somebody . Felt and well still feel prety proud my self specialy when never been the good student or even more showed as example to others lol it kind inspired me to tbh like gives me some motivation to actualy do something wich is well pretty cool 🙂 feels nice