the new group

unbelievable things happen sometimes i guess. well to make it short in uni we had to divide in groups between us and prepare things for a mini exhibition which is pretty much like a mini try out of ideas to prep for the final end of the year show. so trough this all stuff i was added to this group of differences and before i even got to join properly i was trown out . lol so on that note i was set to make my own group and with my boyfriends kind encouragement . i kind of ened up rallying this other girl into making a new group and this weird guy ended up joining us too. so now im actualy feel pretty good about the upcoming stuff. as we need make like an webpage and other bits and bobs to do . so once in my life i actualy feel good about the progress of my uni stuff lol . just wanted to share it

so the valentines are apporoaching

hellow friends, how are you feeling are you ready for the valentines day? i know i am. well kind of. obvious get some bits for my lovely bf to have but thats about as far as it goes. me and him be together 5 years at end of june yet this will be the first valentines day we actually have together . in some sense it is kind of making me a bit nervous . duno why tho as we dont really celebrate it anyway . we all  know that every day should be like the valentines day. but still . i guess just another thing to tick of i the grand lisst of things done in relation ship haha

here is my video about what i got for my valentine. its crazy sweets and pure love haha

Week in..

its week gone since my birthday.. I know I know its only a week but already feels like im failing the list . The magical list of this year and never mind the one day list thats literary never to happen. Im half way into my book im still 64.5 kgs wich is just crazy been years since I weight this much but I joined noom coach again wich was great help to me last year I will make video on this cos I just want to share the goosd things . Uni ways if you been reading my ramblings i suck bad time . But im trying and planing spend all day tomorrow studying. In some sense I do feel kind of stuck feeling wich is not good same with my art im trying to relax etc and just put what ever on paper but obvious  its not exactly happening I just feel stuck in rutine I guess. Im usual found of good rutine  ut this def aint one. I think its time for great change . Its time to embrace it.

Anyhow lets stop the moaning im thinking christmas. I cant wait decorate my beautiful tree again usualy do it around mid of december. Have got some gifts too almost all for my  boyfriend  and litle bit for mum but have thoughts what get for dad and finish rest so im on track. Need  find something nice to put in my Christmas cards too as always . Must say pretty exited .

To finish of heres me of the other day lol . Told you no change since my birthday

vlog

the ups and downs

just be tottal ramblings in this post.lol i nt been posting past couple days as just cant get my mind together everything seem to kind distract me in a sense. with uni and my bf being stressed to fuck and my mum the same so its jut yuck cos obvious noone wants to see people you love be unhappy.but u know life is life and cant do anything about it. at least there is some good things happening too. as uni be done im keeping fingers crossed for getting job i cant wait tbh i need money and kind need something to keep my mind bussy too need sort some bits about my screen printing to as i want to kind of start printing t shirts and stuff . ill keep you updated about that too so something to look out for. but for now i finaly just wana get under covers and sleep as have early training tomarrow and still like million things to do tomarrow so yeah

 

Don’t u just hate deadlines? Yesterday had nap at evening woke about 6ish in total panic that there is so much to do but all I do is just lie there and watch family guy all day . Lol that’s no way to function. Lol but I’m doing it. Enormous amount to do for tomorrow as need have everything done by then as going scotland this friday. As promessed I will post up bits of my work and of my sketchbook to show u all .I dnt feel like I will do too great mark ways with this project but I do really love some of the work I have made so I thought I share it before I most likely attempt to sell it as per usual lol feel so poor lol. But I’m working well trying to . Still doing my work serch no luck so far but fingers crossed .

vitamin c will save the day

Good evening people. Let’s have glass of vitamin c and drink up for feeling better ! Finaly did the stupid video . As you can see it kind sucks ass as you can see for your self in the previous post of mine. Still like million things to do so taking on masive doses of vitamin c to get it all going . Feel good and positive . Tomarrow blood giving day too so that’s good . I’m doing it I’m doing it . Xx

tiredness and stress

The joys of grown up life stress work money lol. Just lately been feeling tired out just cos too much going on in my mind. Like with the work and uni starting too. Just seems so much to do but no time to do it . As per usual. In way really can’t wait go scotland to go away for bit cos it does halp me get away from the every day normal things just love and joy . I think its good just get away for bit just relax from the world duno why just been bit much . And any1 who ever delt with depression will know how it is just when u know the signs and u just need bit brake and not get in that point again.pfft..