Just lying in bed watching supersize vs superskinny always look at the thin person and think wow if I’d be that thin I know its bad and stuff but always wondered in kind suprize that I havnt gone in ether under eating or over eating or bulimia or something cos of the paranoia in my head and the guilt that I feel when I hav some food like its ok if it something little but say if do have take away wich I have rarely I feel so guilty and horible after. Sometimes do try tell it to people that are close to me and in some sence really dnt get it people says that’s stupid just hav food . And I’m like no that’s nt going near my mouth. U know when u see them people in pictures and u see them being thin and stuff it do fEels good in sence knowing I’m at least close to it if notting else . Planing to sort some inspiration pictures for my oneday wall