could never be stay at home housewife

ok, this feels like the longest day ever . been up from like 10 o’clock which i thought that’s good can get up and take on. you know bit of smart thinking forward. so being a good child and being a good partner i thought ill do my weekly house clean. i was too dead after training yesterday so i moved it to today , usually its my Saturday thing. honestly i feel sweaty and dusty and just yuck but hey at least the house looks clean . some sense feels like i could have spent this day doing something else cos now i just wana sit i my bed watch a random show and play family guy game. feel kind of sad. despite obvious wanting show my future husband that ill be a good homemaker i could not do this on every day basis cos ill simply lose my mind. even now feels like spending too much time at home so i dnt now if i could do it as stay at home mum etc . no freaking way lol i know lots people want that but i just cant imagine myself in that position. just cant, plus all the other responsibilities of a house wife , im thinking ill have a househusband and ill be the bread bringer no objection to that ..

finaly back to work outs

so its official im in day number 3 of nor,al work out range every day.  so get that fat off and them muscles back cause i want to wear some shorts and i dont want my legs wigling about.  not this year.  thos year is the year for change and good stuff.  so fuck fat lets do this. but must say as alwats as increase the work out load my tummy been grumbling nom stop too so need be aware that i dont stuff, y face with cakes.  ok maybe a tiny bit cake just to say hey i can aford to eat cake lol look at my flat tummy lol one day. hopefully soon. 

first day of exercising

its official it is 1st day back to the every day exercising and seemed ok so far but now when just sitting here felt a bit like my dinner is working its way back lol so not a good start . but u know its the first day tomarrow 1st proper training since back too so see how that goes but im just trying to stay positive and just roll with it .

 

new shorts

So yesterday went to london was amazing as always got some small bits and bobs will make small video about it but I did wore my new cyberdog shorts today lol not that I can aford to with my mega legs lol but I love them lol goes good with my pj top too lol

tired like my kitty cat here

Been such good day today have lots done in uni and came home and started on ny new work out plan too well as we all know the first days are the toughest but worth it lol. Ill post a plan for my every day up for all following week so maybe give you some ideas so your joining me against lazy but cheeks like fat cat haha

is this apropriate?

So I’m just back from training tired as hell . But I thought just have bit rest before jump in making my uni stuff I thought I could make 1 video to go on now and 1 for after but this is what I’m wearing lol is this appropriate or not? Cos I’m in that stage where I feel dead on my feet but same time wana take on the world lol.. Just want my bed

hating the day already

Its literary the worst . Stayed up way way to late last nigh slept for like hour and a half got up at 6. 20 am. I feel like my eyes gona leak out . Lol is that normal sign of tiredness ? To me yes it is. I can feel already that today aint gona be a productive day but well at least I am up and running instead staying home and doing f all all day. I can already see my self killing every1 in my brain moment I step in uni . Actually have to embrace and socialise . Not today sunshine.

cant get up

This week been so with me and so against me well most day this week I could sleep in cos practicaly no uni this week but now that I have to get up for it its just torture . That’s the thing if it be like 7 in morning it be ok but now its like no lol plus 1 of my eyes feel kind funny just hoping no infection there . Plus I gona attempt get ready with me video as I go along. And then atempt to actualy arive in uni by 2pm just dnt wana move lol so lazy

tiredness and stress

The joys of grown up life stress work money lol. Just lately been feeling tired out just cos too much going on in my mind. Like with the work and uni starting too. Just seems so much to do but no time to do it . As per usual. In way really can’t wait go scotland to go away for bit cos it does halp me get away from the every day normal things just love and joy . I think its good just get away for bit just relax from the world duno why just been bit much . And any1 who ever delt with depression will know how it is just when u know the signs and u just need bit brake and not get in that point again.pfft..

so tired and so cold

Its officialy day 3 in uni . I feel ill nt be to happy with as we had read this paper about philosopher as artis which well was lots off bullshit no offence to the person who wrote it but just felt like some1 hav took 1 sentence and repeted it to fill 4 pages . Plus god the general idea of the writing bit and stuff in fine art course is just beyond to me because its worth higher procentage than the practical part. Lol I seem so hatefull towards things lately . But com on 1st project we get is group work . And we ment come out as independent young artists . Yet we learn no new skills. I’m just pissed off and can’t get over it lol