new ideas and new start

happy-first-birthday

it will be my 22nd birth day next tuesday (25th november) and honestly i have never looked more forward to my birthday in my life. well for starters my parents gifted me a trip for me and my boyfriend to go to london which im super sicked about as been months upon months since last been there. come to think of it last time i was in london was january… disappointing all the way. but at least have ticket now so am good to go . without a plan yet tho as need consult my boyfriend and pretend we will do things he wants lol. but going back to birthday idea. bit background – every year since who knows when i have made a list of things i want to do that year . usually trying keep it realistic and just adding couple crazy ones to keep me motivated obviously i have never completed the whole list . in my brain its kind of impossible but for a change i actually feel like i could do it this year . i will post the final list on here when its done as still feel like couple bits need be added. plus for this years list i decided to mix it up and trow in some random mini goals, i think thats why i feel it will be easier achieve all of the things on there . so fir now next 2 days ill be for start working my ass off to finish my dissertation draft as need be handed in monday morning and will be enjoying extra binging on food and other bits that will be cut out after my birthday day to achieve some of my goals.

another thing i wanted to mention , i have not posted anything for a month here but i have been posting on my youtube channel . even was  a bussy bee today and added new video this morning ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8uXMYMQmxM&feature=youtu.be )  but now on to typing the essay .

30 day blogging challenge day 13

Day 13 : photo of your favorite band or artist

Well I can’t deny this . I think this have to be manson. But early manson not last 2 albums manson lol . I been listening to it for since can member my self and it been great inspiration of how I dress etc so I think I can easily put him as my favorite

i want to be skinny again

This is it yesterday it struck me heavily . I’m fat again. I hate it . Cos work I dnt have time to work out at day time and at evening I’m usually too tired to be bothered to do anything yet it does not stop me eating like a little piggy . So I think its time to take action. I gona cut down munch for everything I eat ill do 10 squats like did in good old days . And need come up with routine that can actually work for evening time rather than just skipping it . Like kate moss said nothing tastes as good as skinny feels . Could not agree with that more. So I think its time for action . Finaly .

all signs of jealousy

All happy signs of jealousy in me. No shame lol no shame. As per always been browsing my facebook and have noticed that literary everyone I know is going somewhere and doing things where I’m like no money need stay home and look sad lol. Cos seriously sometimes I just don’t get it. They same as me students not rich etc yet seems like everything’s possible in their lives. I mean what is this scosery lol tell me your secrets . I want be somebody too .

losing the look cos have to work?

So since been working have noticed that my look is well losened up even when I’m off work . Hate the fact that have used to wearing lose tops and random trausers . Aint a good look at all . Plus the fact I have no sports activities what so ever thinking that need double up my work outs every day cos I noticed I have been losing weight but I know on this case its my muscle mass nt my fat . I dnt mind the job its a good and easy work but just seems I’m paying for it with my identity ..

is this the right path?

Ever sat there and wondered if your going the right way in your carrier? Honestly I’m now sitting in my works canteen area drinking hot chocolate and wondering. What am I doing, where am I going with this . Will I be a somebody 1 day . At least enough of a sombody to provide for my family etc . Now that my youtube chanel is picking up I kind feel inspired to actualy start think what I gona do . Specialy knowing that just 1 year left . Honestly think I just need a bit of goal setting not like one day but bit more realistic . Maybe open a shop . That was good idea at start . But dunno. The joys of wondering mind..

30 day blogging challenge day 5

Day 5: photo of your favorite memory

As previouss post was for yesterday I decided do one more . For this I chose picture of me and my bf from 1st day he came down . At moment it is my favorite memory cos its one of the best things that have ever happened to me. The pic it self pretty tragic but the thought is there lol

30 day bloging challenge day 2

Day 2: photo with you and someone you been close to for a while .

So here is photo of me and my lovely boyfriend . We have been close for what 6 and half years now lol . So been a while . Specially now that we live together for just over a month . So can’t be happier 🙂

30 day challenge again ?

Yes I will be doing another 30 day challenge because it helped me last time to get back into blogging every day last time when this kind of zig zag happened . Plus this is a like a photo challenge. So something a bit different . Made me think about instagram tho as I’m still not updating since my tablet is still dead hopefully will get it working soon or get a new one . Really miss it tbh .