the list

As I previously mentioned , every year I make a list of things I want to do till my next birth day, so as I got a new beautiful planer I thought its time to start working on it . Most of the bits are doable and must be done but some are a bit out there just to keep me motivated . At moment have 17 points obvious ill probably add something at some point but this is what I have now

Finish 3rd year in university (kind of obvious need finish what started )

Find a job (cos being poor is no fun)

Find an apartment (this is a biggy. But honestly feel ready and good to go)

The good measurements (work out my insides get skinny again)

Go to london x5 (must go london see people . 1 time already down)

Go for a massage (why not never been for a professional massage)

Go on a trip (holliday , call it how ever you want it but it must involve plains and definitely not involve latvia lol)

Buy the good perfume (yes dior all the way . Been a while)

Buy the good bag (I think these 2 points will encourage me to work more)

Join gym (want to get skinny again)

Pierce ears x2 (need get them ears finished finally I mean been over a year since my last piercing)

Get a tattoo x3 (so many planed so need get some finally done)

Get 6000 flowers on youtube (I managed 3000 last year so another year another 3000?)

Sell hand made things x30 (need money)
Take part in art contests x4 (need get noticed)

Read a book x30 (really want to get into reading more so thought I put it in the list)

No more junk food ( want get skinny . So far failing lol)

This is my list so far . Hope it gives you some ideas maybe for your new years resolutions . Any suggestions be sure to leave comment

little goths and their hatrid towards the world ??

Recently been talking to this person about the goth scene in the kids now and that. Its lots more different than it was when I started going into it all . Aperently me in my 20 years count as old goth already as I clearly never grew out of it lol but it seems like now every1 who is goth and does not hate the world ur not goth lol just makes me laugh and these 12 15 year old kids take it all super serious that u need hate and rebel to absolutely everything you see other ways u are not goth its like in my eyes they don’t actualy see the joys of it . I have always been pretty positive and still goth to this day that’s y maybe its kind of idiotic in my mind . When was going to school and every1 had these ideas I never was really accepted by got comunity because I did staid positive about literary everything cos I think there is good in everything but my fellow goth kids were pretty hatefull and I felt that its to limited thinking. I feel people should be more open minded specialy if ur kind of alternative cos most people view u as a weirdo but that’s their prob nt urs prob that’s y feel like I hav never been bullied as I never cared enough its ur mind and lol I’m happy u have one so shut up and stop being so hatefull

It literary feels like the worst day of my life for start just can’t get my head together and then everything just nt going as smooth as planed . But am finaly on train to work. So getting ther . Dnt like that need go by bus back too so just gona kind ride trough it .just feel like want hit some1 tho . Lol never a good sign. Just want some exitement or something something that be like yeah look at this that a life not this nonsence . Even uni just cudnt start like for every 1 else no that’s too fucking much to ask . Jut rrr not happy 😦