so it’s finally officially my last weekend as a student. this is literary it. what gona kill my brains now lol. also starting the next week fresh as a good little person with waking up at 7 to start work at 8. lol i was even thinking about getting a bike so i could roll to the work and save money and get skinny legs at the same time lol definite grown up thinking there. but honestly not sure that can believe that pretty much this is the end for my education at least for this time being. its been very very quick. i feel like now i need find new almost like purpose or even better a goal to aim for till now was to finish uni which now is ticked off just need wait till graduation that’s in september but in sense that just lie celebration not the end cos the end is now. even got a cute card from my parents and boyfriend graduating me . i thin this is good time to look at my one day list again and see what could be my next big aim in life. its like suddenly all these exiting doors have opened and i wana go thru them all. lol ok im definitely not a grown up yet.
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continuing on unbelievable things happening yes im making my very own web page. i have finally drafted the outlook of it so i can just slot my pics in it etc. and planing to hopefully publish it by the end of this week obviously there will be updates etc on it with some stuff half done . but the thought is there . im using wix.com to create it . they have lots of exiting templets to use and you can totally mix everything up and its supper easy once you get the hang of it . so must say im even looking forward to making this happen .
only thing at the moment the webpage will be for my art stuff only as i just simply need it for my university course but i think after this is done i will make it all about me kind of thing lol . its great to make things about your self lol its like im somebody lol .
but going on art theme here is one of my old art videos i made like 4 year ago just give you a glimpse.
unbelievable things happen sometimes i guess. well to make it short in uni we had to divide in groups between us and prepare things for a mini exhibition which is pretty much like a mini try out of ideas to prep for the final end of the year show. so trough this all stuff i was added to this group of differences and before i even got to join properly i was trown out . lol so on that note i was set to make my own group and with my boyfriends kind encouragement . i kind of ened up rallying this other girl into making a new group and this weird guy ended up joining us too. so now im actualy feel pretty good about the upcoming stuff. as we need make like an webpage and other bits and bobs to do . so once in my life i actualy feel good about the progress of my uni stuff lol . just wanted to share it
So hee i am standing looking at the empty space i call my final wall to hand in kind stuff . And all these thoughts run trough my mind like how much i want to trow everyone’s stuff in the bin cos they have chosen to leave it next to my space . How much i want to go home, how much i dont want discuss how empty my wall is with the rest of the group . Sometimes i just dont want to even remotely socialize with the people around me . I know im a bad person but i just dont care . I dont care even this much of how everyone elses work is going and how have they made or not made progress and it just goes against my morals to go fundraise for an exibitin that will take place in university where i already pay 9000 pounds a year for to give them more publicity on my cost . Honestly i ill rather shoot my self lol . Yes i am being extremely negative about this but i cant be f ed to deal with this . We meant to become independent artists etc etc etc yet everything is based on working with people not by your self but in a group . I just can not take it no more ..
Started the day with email from uni saying how my attendance is low and I should fill this form in if I been sick wich I obviously havent been , I just kind of lost my concentration on the idea of university again. Its like I am doing the work etc its not like im doing f all . I just find it stupid to spend 15 ponds for 15 minutes of teChing. Its crazy to my mind , but hey maybe its just me. But besides this I feel like im doing quite ok for change . At least in uni. Even have final work planed and everything . And even more unbalievable I came up with idea for things to sell too . As I love my collor paintings . I thought I could do smallpaintkngs of like flowers and genraly nice things lol . With an s&m ponny trown in here or there so at least in this . I embRce the new better life. But where it co es to other bits well just need see how its going ..
so the unbalievable is starting to happen and the end of my 2nd year in uni is coming to an end. just finishing of some final prints and then just this mega thing to write up and finaly be out here and havr good chance to get job in same place my mum is working. at least for the summer. so can actualy aford things. cos have some bits totravel planed. and need some cash for my passport too as thats endin too but over all must say feel proud of my self actualy making it. it was for forever. so yeah. lol. i feel that my grades be happily down the hill but i m doing it and not giving up. and just end up with mega list of people i hate lol