Ever sat there and wondered if your going the right way in your carrier? Honestly I’m now sitting in my works canteen area drinking hot chocolate and wondering. What am I doing, where am I going with this . Will I be a somebody 1 day . At least enough of a sombody to provide for my family etc . Now that my youtube chanel is picking up I kind feel inspired to actualy start think what I gona do . Specialy knowing that just 1 year left . Honestly think I just need a bit of goal setting not like one day but bit more realistic . Maybe open a shop . That was good idea at start . But dunno. The joys of wondering mind..
Hey guys , so been a while . Must say been quite hectic couple weeks with my boyfriend moving down from scotland and me getting a job . So feels like I’m ether traveling somewhere or am at home with him and obvious nt wantting to spoil the lovely moments with blogging non stop lol. But most say feel great . I have some1 to wake up every morning have a job to go to it feels good almost like a real person. And today in bus to town I started to even want to paint again . Which did suprize me a little as been couple months since looked at canvas . Prob bring sketchbook to work with me next couple shifts so can plan out a painting . I gues I need be happy to embrace the art world . Depression aint doing it for me . I will go in bigger details about what’s happening etc in a vlog as it just seems easier to explain with hand movements etc lol . I will get back on track with updating youtube too as been a while . But I’m getting there . Hope ur enjoying the lovely summer weather not like me lol.
Best wishes -disspossable
Day 30: your hopes for your blog
Well in a sense I just wana be able to give out my opinion to the world about whatever is happening and I hope that I kind out maybe gives ideas to people or something . I already have more subscribers than I ever thought I will specially for my youtube channel . And I apriciate every 1 of my subscribers . Its nice to know that there is some like minded people lol. And u know the more the marryer 🙂
Day 24: what attracts you ( in love)
For me personally I think its all the usual stuff like I want the person to for start be attracted to me and they have to be honest and loyal to me and supportive and all that kind good stuff . I think it is important that I’d find my other half physically attracted too. I member reading like interview or something and the woman said that she not only wants to be a caring wife but a passionate mistress too . Which I think is great saying . And yes I think that’s what I want from the person I’m with and as a plus points for me I get too hehe . Lol.
day 21 : what makes you sad
well im usualy trying to be pretty positive about things and what ever is happening eyc. with all the there is something good in everything thats bad motivation but things that mainly make me sad is seeing people i love being upset or simply unhappy about something. thats usualy the thing thats gets to me if can pass everything else thats one thing that kind makes me think about things.
Day 6: what are you afraid of?
This seemed like really easy question cause I can straight answer it without thinking . There is 2 things that I’m heavily afraid of
1. Losing people I love. Not only as in sense that something would happen to them but in sense that something would happen and they wouldn’t want me in their life for what ever reason. Its just a hurtful process no-one wana go trough.
2. Water as in sea oceans and massive wave. That stuff scares the life out me and if I have nightmares at night its always some big ass wave killing me lol so no I don’t do water .
Dnt u ever get feel that u have worked out too much and kind think hmm ill have couple days to reast and the find ur self given up and stuffing mc donalds down ur troat wile thinking that? Lol I sure do. Its just sometimes I feel like I need a bad dream to relise that yeah need get back to it and instead of picking up a snack pack of sweets but say apple or banana instead . Always seems so hard to just have a rest and then get back into it cos its just not happenibg . Nt too pleased of my self
so since i can remember my self people always compared my looks to young marilyn manson. always found it as a good thing tho. i mean look how good looking he was. lol obvious 1 bad sign like well i look like a man? lol its not that bad yet. well some people have thought befor that i look like man in drag tho. but allways loved it lol makes my life more wicked. haha