Could this count as art?

The art ended when the printers ink ended. So half of the work done and half just hanging about . But in the end at least got a bit done so its all not lost . Started on the color squares for the writing to be added after as want to screen print this too. As per usual. Think cant do anything without screen printing these days . Where before thouht i gona do painting etc. Still do a bit but it doesnt give me the same satisfiction as the screen printing does . Guess i just have grown to it. Over all think be ready for long week jn print room . But time goes quick when your having fun. So defo looking forward to this. Just hope turns out the way wanted .

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Hate your self

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Casualy working away on self hate photographs.  Basically printed out photographs of my self and a big black marker pen to show off all the things i hate about my body . This is the first stage for this . As when finished be choosing couple of images to screen print in larger frames.

Its all lies

Yes im officially  living world of lies .. lies of why im never on time lol. Today was absolute murder to get up was ment be in uni by 9 but im still in Nottingham  wich is not a good start considering that the print room closes at 3 not 5.30 like usual . Its beyondly pissing me off but im up and runiing . And having a bit of treat of caffe nero chocolate and coconut cream frappe mmm yes its the way to live lol . Feel quite full tbh . And while killing time jhere i happily found some work out challenge apps to get me motivated specialy with chrismas and new years eatings lol .  But  ack to the point . My minds just so so out there today . Im still not sure what im doing but im doing it . Thats why making list in the train  and ticking jt off too hopefuly hopefully

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why cant one have the better life?

you may ask what is stopping one to be truly happy , must say in past couple weeks time i have discovered that it is always people involvement. ill specify that . the people who you may not want to be as involved as they want to be. it feels like ongoing thing couple weeks to get over madness then when you start think oh you know its not to bad . someone comes along and disturbs it again and this vicious circle keeps going on and on and on. its like there is no escaping it. which leads me to think is there really possibility for better life if other people are involved. obvious i want a few people in my life but would it effect their lives for better too if i do something about mine. but lets face it some changes need happen. job for a start would be nice change . but that seem to never to happen. sadly .. but at least uni is going well at moment. went to this art and thereness elective obvious at previous day email argument with the teacher person which was obvious fun but other ways been not too bad have plan with plenty things to do but right now im thinking bit job search shower and pink panther cartoon marathon . that will defo be improvement of my life. hah

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So my attendance is low

Started the day with email from uni saying how my attendance is low and I should fill this form in if I been sick wich I obviously havent been , I just kind of lost my concentration on the idea of university again. Its like I am doing the work etc its not like im doing f all . I just find it stupid to spend 15 ponds for 15 minutes of teChing.  Its crazy to my mind , but hey maybe its just me. But besides this I feel like im doing quite ok for change . At least in uni. Even have final work planed and everything . And even more unbalievable I came up with idea for things to sell too . As I love my collor paintings . I thought I could do smallpaintkngs of like flowers and genraly nice things lol . With an s&m ponny trown in here or there  so at least in this . I embRce the new better life. But where it co es to other bits well just need see how its going ..

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the list

As I previously mentioned , every year I make a list of things I want to do till my next birth day, so as I got a new beautiful planer I thought its time to start working on it . Most of the bits are doable and must be done but some are a bit out there just to keep me motivated . At moment have 17 points obvious ill probably add something at some point but this is what I have now

Finish 3rd year in university (kind of obvious need finish what started )

Find a job (cos being poor is no fun)

Find an apartment (this is a biggy. But honestly feel ready and good to go)

The good measurements (work out my insides get skinny again)

Go to london x5 (must go london see people . 1 time already down)

Go for a massage (why not never been for a professional massage)

Go on a trip (holliday , call it how ever you want it but it must involve plains and definitely not involve latvia lol)

Buy the good perfume (yes dior all the way . Been a while)

Buy the good bag (I think these 2 points will encourage me to work more)

Join gym (want to get skinny again)

Pierce ears x2 (need get them ears finished finally I mean been over a year since my last piercing)

Get a tattoo x3 (so many planed so need get some finally done)

Get 6000 flowers on youtube (I managed 3000 last year so another year another 3000?)

Sell hand made things x30 (need money)
Take part in art contests x4 (need get noticed)

Read a book x30 (really want to get into reading more so thought I put it in the list)

No more junk food ( want get skinny . So far failing lol)

This is my list so far . Hope it gives you some ideas maybe for your new years resolutions . Any suggestions be sure to leave comment

work

I have literary no luck work ways. I get work is work and work is needed cos one needs money to spend . I’m not complaining about the actual work I’m complaining about the fact that I’m not on the tomarrows list for people who gona work meaning I shouldn’t be working but if I don’t go I can face the chance that I might get a warning for it . Cos people have got that before which in my eyes is unacceptable. Meaning be paper work leters etc etc . Like I’m not meant to have job where things work properly .

i want to be skinny again

This is it yesterday it struck me heavily . I’m fat again. I hate it . Cos work I dnt have time to work out at day time and at evening I’m usually too tired to be bothered to do anything yet it does not stop me eating like a little piggy . So I think its time to take action. I gona cut down munch for everything I eat ill do 10 squats like did in good old days . And need come up with routine that can actually work for evening time rather than just skipping it . Like kate moss said nothing tastes as good as skinny feels . Could not agree with that more. So I think its time for action . Finaly .

losing the look cos have to work?

So since been working have noticed that my look is well losened up even when I’m off work . Hate the fact that have used to wearing lose tops and random trausers . Aint a good look at all . Plus the fact I have no sports activities what so ever thinking that need double up my work outs every day cos I noticed I have been losing weight but I know on this case its my muscle mass nt my fat . I dnt mind the job its a good and easy work but just seems I’m paying for it with my identity ..